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It was in that moment Jak realized he had never experienced real terror.

He’d faced down horrifyingly lethal monsters and an army of karn and certain death from a dozen different ways, but the only thing that had even come close to touching how he felt right now was during his first few days, when he heard Niri scream his name in fear, calling for help.

Everything hurt. His head, his body, his limbs, everything ached and the sick feeling was lingering, but none of that mattered right now.

Move!” Jak yelled as he raced forward towards his village.

It sounded like madness up ahead.

More screaming, more crying, more horror.

The others hurried to keep up, following in his wake through the dead forest and the snowfall.

Jak wasn’t sure at what point he transitioned over into his heightened state, but he knew that he arrived at his village in it and took everything in with an awful clarity.

It was like stepping into a nightmare.

There was blood in the air, the fresh-spilled blood of his tribemates, and something was burning that wasn’t a cooking fire. One of the nearest huts had collapsed into a heap of raw materials. People ran screaming from the…

Corrupted. He realized at once that he was seeing a corrupted being, but not like the others. This was a corruption of the magical kind, what was clearly an instant process. He felt terror rip at him once more as he felt a fresh wave of pain roll through his body.

Was the corruption now inside of him?

His bond-mates?

Jak shook that off. Right now, it didn’t matter, he couldn’t do anything about it. But he could do something about this situation in front of him, even if it was going to be brutally painful. He had somewhere to be, something to do, and several someones to save.

Energy burning within him, Jak drew and threw two knives in rapid succession, his movements smooth and fluid. Each one buried itself in the eye of a recently corrupted tribemate who were both in the process of attacking their non-corrupted brethren.

There was chaos in the village, over a dozen different small skirmishes having broken out. Jak drew his adze and moved.

He moved like a beast made for the hunt in its absolute purest form.

Everything else was slow around him, and it was easy, so worryingly easy, to run up and bring his blade down or around in a tight arc, removing tribemate after tribemate from life with a spray of blood. And that only made it worse as he did it.

Knowing he had to do this, that there was no obvious way to bring them back, knowing they would kill and kill and kill if he didn’t kill them, didn’t help ease the agony.

His adze tore into a man’s neck, a hunter who had joined fairly recently. His name was Ket. His eyes were full of black light and his face was smeared with blood. He went down to join the dead in the dirt and Jak moved on.

He pushed himself faster and harder, knowing that every instant he had not completed this task was another instant that someone could, and likely would, die. And he moved ever forward through the huts towards his cave, hunting desperately for his lovers.

Every person he came to, every face he saw, he feared the worst.

But finally, as he saved another tribemate from a pair of corrupted closing in on her, Jak hurried out between two huts that would finally put him in view of his own cave, and there he saw Rylee. She was healing someone and Niri was standing over her, a bone blade in each hand, looking pained but fierce.

“Jak!” she cried.

The relief he felt was immense. They were still alive, still fighting.

His relief didn’t last long as he heard a shout come from behind him. Turning back around, he saw that the fire from earlier had grown.

“Jak, what is happening!?” Niri yelled.

“I don’t know!” he called back. “Keep guarding Rylee!”

“All right!”

She’d hardly gotten her response out before he was off and running again, his ability still burning so brightly in him, forcing him to action. He dodged in among the huts, his absolute need to help his tribemates burning as furious in his head as the power that thundered within him. Jak dodged between two huts and saw a small group of people had coalesced near the fire, trying to handle the situation.

Some were helping the wounded, some were trying to put out the fire, some were standing guard against further corrupted.

There weren’t enough.

“Get the wounded to my cave!” he snapped, appearing beside them. “Sena!” he yelled, staring at the fire. “Here! Now!”

Jak had no idea if she was here, he only knew that he had no obvious way to deal with the fire. It had spread to three huts now and looked to be getting worse. He sensed movement to his left and saw Sena running towards him through the falling snow.

“Can you deal with the fire?” he asked.

“I...I think so,” she replied, studying it uncertainly.

“Try! I have to–”

He reacted on pure instinct, barely registering the sound of heavy paws beating the ground in rapid approach. Twisting to his right, he saw a wolf, eyes full of darkness, frothing at the mouth, coming right towards him.

It leaped into the air, jaws open wide.

Jak snapped forward, driving his fist into the corrupted wolf’s mouth without thinking about it. His fist parted the top of the wolf’s head from the rest of it, sending it flying through the air. He jerked forward in the next instant, hitting the wolf’s corpse with his shoulder and deflecting it away from Sena.

It hit the ground and rolled a few times, twitching occasionally as blood burst out of its ruined head.

More were coming out of the forest, dark, low shapes advancing on him through the snowfall.

“Deal with the fire!” he snapped, and ran forward.

This was getting worse faster than he could deal with it.

No. He could handle it.

He’d handled worse.

Probably.

Jak moved, settling into the flow of combat as four wolves advanced on him with a sinister grace absent from the other corrupted. What were the rules with these? Were they the same? Were they even corrupted?

It didn’t matter. They were a threat.

They needed to end.

He hurled his short spear in a single motion, didn’t even watch it punch through the skull of the nearest wolf, simply knew that it would in the heat of the moment. He was already drawing another thin bone knife and throwing it overhand at the eye of the next wolf. It collapsed, twitching violently, as Jak fell upon the others with his adze.

They were dead in a matter of a few short, hard chops.

But even as the blood was landing around him, darkening the snow that had fallen and gathered, he saw more wolves emerging from the treeline. And there were other creatures behind them. He saw a giant spider, a few uncertain human or elven shapes, and at least two blade-toothed tigers. All of them with glowing dark eyes.

Something was wrong.

They were moving with too much purpose, too coordinated.

“Jak! I can’t stop the fire!” Sena yelled.

He glanced back briefly over his shoulder and saw the fire was spreading further, despite Sena’s efforts. Several of his tribemates were backing away from the flames, looking around anxiously. It was falling apart like dry earth in his grasp.

Something whirled through the air out of the village to his left, sailed past him, and wrapped around the legs of a wolf, tripping it up. Almost at the same moment, a spear came flying through the falling snow and punched through the skull of one of the blade-toothed tigers.

Nessa, Keeza, and Zora appeared, jogging forward to join him.

“Nessa! Zora! I need you to get with Rylee and Niri and get everyone out of here!” he said. Then he raised his voice, calling to the village. “Take the wounded and get to the North Outpost as fast as you can!”

“I’m not leaving you here!” Nessa snapped immediately.

“Nessa, I need you to do this.” He tossed a quick, impatient glance at the corrupted creatures encroaching on them. They were getting closer. “I’ll stay here and hold them off. It has to be you leading them, Nessa, you’re the greatest warrior in the tribe after me.”

She stared at him, her chest and face splashed with blood from the fighting and sprinkled with ash from the growing fire.

“You had better be there, fast,” she said finally.

“I will, please make sure you get everyone out. Check the caves!”

“I’m on it, come on, Zora.”

The two women immediately began passing out instructions to those in the nearby area, organizing them with the speed that came from a well-managed village and competent leadership. Nessa fell quickly into her element, pointing and snapping out orders.

Their tribemates moved hastily to follow, grateful for a clear goal.

He didn’t know if the North Outpost was safe, but it was the second safest location, and it was farther from the Barrens.

Of course, he realized, in a sudden wave of fresh horror, that he had no idea how far this...spell? Whatever it was, how far it had reached.

“What about me?” Keeza asked, stepping up to his side.

“You owe us nothing,” Jak replied, eyeing the corrupted.

He hurled another bone knife and dropped one of the corrupted humans, someone he tried not to recognize in that moment.

“Oh yes, let me just go back to my cave in all this!” Keeza snapped.

She picked up a nearby spear and threw it with amazing accuracy, punching it right through the skull of another corrupted man.

“If you’re willing to help, then I’ll take it. Help me kill them! Buy my people time!”

And then he was off, a club in one hand, the adze in the other.

More corrupted were spilling from the forest.

How many were there?!

He ignored the question as soon as he posed it, knowing that it didn’t really matter. He would fight on for as long as he had to.

And he did, moving among the corrupted with a weapon in each hand, striking with blows and attacks that killed in an instant. Even freshly made corrupted couldn’t stand against him, at least not one on one.

Time passed, blood flowed, the village burned.

Jak’s own body was burning up already from using his ability so soon after the last time. He knew the only reason he wasn’t suffering a lot more was because he’d managed to get at least some rest in between then and now.

This couldn’t go on forever, though.

He felt his hope returning to him, though, as he saw his people moving with purpose. And Keeza. She was a warrior in her own right, and as he watched her tear through half a dozen new corrupted wolves, he suddenly wondered about his assessment of Nessa being second only to him.

Well, that was a thought he’d keep firmly to himself.

He kept going, arms swinging back and forth, delivering devastating blows with the hardened club and lethal chops with the adze, cleaving through flesh and bone like water. He put his great strength and speed to use, and Keeza did hers, and they killed and slaughtered and murdered.

And still the corrupted came out of the forest.

Enough time had to have passed. He no longer heard the voices of the others. He no longer heard anything but the roar of the fire and the awful sounds of the ever-advancing corrupted.

“Keeza!” he shouted, yanking his adze free of another skull. “We have to go! Follow me!”

“Go!” she replied, disengaging and running towards him.

He turned and ran into the burning village, moving clear of the fire that had taken over half a dozen huts now, and tried not to feel the rage and horror that was building steadily in him. The rage and horror that grew worse with each body he stepped over.

This was their home. They’d spent over a season building it, living in it, making it theirs.

And now they were forced out by impossible circumstances.

They got around the burning huts and came to the cave entrances.

Jak pointed to a section of the rock between the two entrances. “Climb!”

“What are you doing?” Keeza replied.

“I need to make sure everyone got out!”

“Jak, let me help you,” she said after an instant’s hesitation.

“No, just get out of here and get to the North Outpost,” he replied. “I know you know where it is.”

She sighed. “I’ll climb, but I’m waiting for you up there.”

“Fine. Go. Hurry,” he replied.

Jak hurried first into his own cave, still burning through that energy. He couldn’t drop out of his heightened state until he was clear of the village and somewhere relatively safe. Having Keeza around would help with that. She could watch out for him while he got his bearings back.

He looked around his cave and found that no one remained. He took a moment to snatch up a new batch of throwing knives, a trio of short spears, and a fresh waterskin. Looking around, he could see that the women had already grabbed whatever important things they could.

His eyes caught on Niri’s nearest painting.

He felt his whole body shudder with rage but pushed it away yet again. No time, never any time to feel, only to do.

He raced back outside and into the communal cave. Running all the way to the back of the tunnel, he checked the spaces where people might be hiding. Nothing in the back chambers, but he could see a lot of packed away food and supplies. He hoped it survived the fires, but there was nothing to be done for it now.

Running back into the central sleeping area, he looked around and his heart skipped a beat as he saw a lone figure laying near the center of the room. He hurried over, already seeing that they were still breathing, and dropped into a crouch.

“Ezzi…” he muttered, seeing she’d taken a blow to the head.

She’d probably wandered in here during the fighting, fleeing or maybe trying to grab something important, and passed out from the wound.

Scooping the slim elf up, he hurried back outside.

The corrupted were among the village now, and...they were keeping their distance from the flames. They were definitely smarter, a lot smarter.

And they looked right at him as he emerged, roared, and began coming for him.

A rock fell from above, hitting the nearest creature, another wolf, cracking its skull.

“Jak! Come on!” Keeza snapped.

It wasn’t easy, but he managed to clamber up the rock face one-armed. The other arm held Ezzi securely, slung over one shoulder.

Keeza took her as he neared the top.

“Come on,” Jak said, “we have to get somewhere safe and rest a moment.”

“Fine,” Keeza replied, “lead the way.”

They hurried off into the frigid darkness, snow still falling in huge, silent flakes around them, oblivious to everything that had just transpired.

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Raw VI is well underway! It’s about 1/3 finished as of right now, and I’m on track with a late March release.

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“Did you know?” Jak asked as he picked up the Star Crystal.

“That he was a magic-user? Yes,” the old warrior replied quietly.

Jak laughed bitterly. He stood and held the crystal up to the pale sunlight, studying it briefly.

“I’ve never seen one so powerful,” the warrior said.

“Neither have I,” Jak lied, placing the crystal securely in one of his pouches. He turned to face the older man. “I didn’t catch your name.”

“Brentak, tribemaster.”

“Well, Brentak, tell me: what was your role to your former tribemaster?”

“Body guard and advisor. Technically I was the Guide. I relayed the tribemaster’s wishes to the rest of the tribe,” Brentak replied.

Jak listened carefully as he looked out over the mountainside village. He listened for lying, for any untruths the man might be inclined to speak.

But Brentak’s voice was steady, his stance sure.

“I get the impression that there was more to it,” he said finally.

“Yes.”

Jak turned to face Brentak finally, studying the man. He was large and built, his body made of slabs of muscle. He had an air of efficiency, even though the hair in his beard was mostly gray and wrinkles gathered at the corners of his eyes and mouth.

He was old, but he still stood straight, and his movements were quick and decisive.

Jak imagined he would be a formidable foe.

It was obvious that the others respected him and looked up to him, relied on him even. While Jak had been doling out orders and asking questions, getting a general sense of the situation and, for the moment, ensuring that Tolvar on the island knew the war was over, at least with his tribe and the elves, they had all looked to Brentak to speak for them.

“I’m going to be relying on you Brentak,” he said after a long moment. “I’m not going to be like your old tribemaster. I cannot stay here and watch over everything. I have another tribe to run, I have an entire island to bring peace to, other villages to talk with, maintain alliances with.”

“You speak with them personally?” Brentak replied, a small amount of surprise breaking through his calm.

“I do. I spend as much time away from my village as I do in it. Sometimes more. I ensure that the important things get done by doing them myself. That’s why I’m here. That’s why I killed your idiot tribemaster. So...what else did you do? You want to tell me something.”

“Yes. I served as a...guardian, between Toval and the rest of the tribe.”

“How so?” Jak asked, curious despite everything.

Brentak looked uncomfortable for the first time, casting a quick, unhappy glance at the dead man beside them. “He wasn’t always like this. He was scared in the beginning, he became tribemaster young. But I helped him. Guided him. He grew into a decent leader, but he was too taken with whims and anger and, later, hatred. And greed.”

He sighed mournfully. “I did what I could, but at some point I learned that he only heard what he wanted to. And he grew vengeful with those who told him what he did not want to hear. I should have killed him at some point, but...I couldn’t. He reminded me of his father, for better or for worse, and his father was my best friend. When he died, a piece of my heart died with him. I couldn’t let that go.”

Slowly, he looked out over the mountainside. “And we all suffered for my weakness.”

“That won’t happen again, will it?” Jak asked.

Brentak’s eyes returned to his own, filled now with a kind of cold, hard strength. “No. It will not. If I feel that you are leading us to our doom, I will challenge you. I know you will kill me, but I will challenge you.”

Jak nodded. “Good. It should be that way. And you won’t have to. This island must come to peace, or we will all die.”

Brentak nodded. “I see that now.”

“I’m not sure if you do,” Jak murmured. “You know the Barrens?”

“I have heard of them,” he replied. “We all have. That is the Tolvar legacy.”

“They are growing. And they will keep growing unless we find some way to fix Uzek’s Transgression.”

Brentak sneered unconsciously at that, but it came and went quickly. “Uzek,” he murmured.

“Do you know anything that might help us? Is there anyone who might know what exactly happened?”

But the big warrior was shaking his head. “No. Our control and eventual outlaw of magic was not done completely out of hatred. Everyone who knew what happened that day in any real detail either died there at the Transgression, or disappeared elsewhere on the island.”

Jak frowned. “What do you mean? Where? Who?”

“I don’t know where,” Brentak replied. “But for some years after, our most knowledgeable magic-user remained by our side.”

“I thought that was Uzek.”

“No. Uzek was powerful, yes, but it was Rall who knew just about everything about magic. He was old even when I was young. He knew old secrets. He had a tribe within a tribe. His inner circle. His...Revek.”

“Revek?”

“That is what they called themselves. The Revek. They served magic, studied it, twisted it. He grew more secretive, more obsessive. I eventually learned that he was still playing with death magic, even after we agreed to forbid it. I almost killed him. I should have. But he was very powerful, he and his inner circle. We settled on exile, but in reality, they chose to leave. I have no idea where they are now, or even if they are still alive.”

He paused, then looked at Jak more intently. “But you say the Barrens, they grow?”

“Every day. Slowly, but surely. They will eventually consume the whole island. An island of death, where no plants will grow, and sickness will reign.”

“I did not know that,” he whispered. “How can we stop it?”

“That’s precisely what I’m trying to determine right now. That was why I did this: so we could stop the fighting and focus on the saving and the healing. And now I must turn my attention to the karn.”

“I do not believe you will succeed with them as you have here,” Brentak muttered.

“Don’t be so sure. You are aware that the embyr control the karn, control their minds? Force them to fight?” he asked.

The warrior nodded. “Yes. But I also know that the others fight of their own free will.”

“Not all of them. I have made a lasting peace with some of them. Dozens and dozens of karn live among my people, your former brethren and some elves as well, in Avat’s Forest. We do not fight. We share meals and caves, hunt and battle together, as friends.”

Brentak stared at him for a long time. “I will have to see it to believe it,” he said finally.

“I will gladly have you see it. But tell me of your war with the karn.”

He sighed. “It goes poorly. You know of our villages?”

“I know Fair Field, obviously. I know that Wetstone is nestled up against the northern edge of the central lake.”

“Shadow Lake,” he said.

“Interesting. I know of another two villages, farther east, towards the embyr’s territory.”

“The first is Gather Village. That is where our food here mostly comes from. They hunt, they fish, they forage, and bring back the excess here. Otherwise, we would not survive. Farther is the Verdant Valley, and Verdant Village. That valley is lush with life, overflowing with it. And with slate, clay, good trees, everything we need to survive. It is also too close to embyr villages. We fight the karn constantly there. Sometimes they make it to Gather or Wetstone. They have many, many karn. They have been breeding them.”

Jak shook his head, horrified at the thought. Being mind-enslaved was bad enough, but that?

He had to end this as quickly as possible. His mind was already working. He’d been thinking in the background of all this on how to end the conflict with the karn, and he thought he had an idea. It was an unstable one, and relied too much on luck, but after everything, it was all he had to go on.

“I have an order for you to carry out,” Jak said.

Brentak straightened up. “Yes, tribemaster.”

“Send a runner to Verdant. Tell them to abandon it. Take as much as they can carry and flee to Wetstone and Gather. Reinforce there.”

“But...the karn will have it then.”

“I know, but not for long. I believe I can find a way to end the embyr’s control over the karn. And once I do that, I can unite the karn and bring us all to peace. Then we can retake Verdant.”

Brentak looked dubious. “How long do you think it will take? The cold days approach. Even now, I’m not sure if we have enough to survive them…”

“Not long,” Jak replied. “I understand your concern, but the karn have clearly bled you nearly dry. How many have you lost against them? Against the elves? Against my own tribe? How many did Toval send to their deaths?”

“Too many,” Brentak muttered bitterly.

“Exactly. I know you are most familiar with fighting, with taking by force, but as I just proved, there is another way. I could have waged war on this village, killing everyone here, and losing dozens, maybe hundreds of my own people in the process.”

“But you didn’t.”

“No, I didn’t. Because I want to preserve life. There will always be a need to fight, always the struggle of survival, but we need not wage it against each other. I have proven we can work together, make it easier, safer.”

Brentak still seemed uncomfortable.

“I know this isn’t easy for you. I don’t want to force you to do my bidding, Brentak. You strike me as a smart and honest warrior whose concern for his people outweighs his concern for himself. So, as one warrior trying to watch out for his people to another, I am asking you to trust me. Because I need your help with this. And the decisions that we make over the next few days will determine if they live or die,” Jak said, gesturing to the village below them.

Brentak stood staring at the village for a long moment. His expression might have been carved from stone.

Slowly, it softened, very gently, almost imperceptible.

He turned back fully to Jak and straightened up to his full height.

“I will do as you ask, tribemaster.”

“Thank you, Brentak. And whatever excess was being stored in there,” he said, gesturing now to the caves he had found Toval in, “give it to the people. Feed them. Heal them. Shelter them. I got the impression Toval was keeping a lot to himself.”

“He was,” Brentak said quietly. “And I will. What will you do?”

“I must speak with my own people. But I will send help. It’s obvious that this mountainside is no longer habitable. If they stay here during the cold days, too many of them will die. So, I will go put together a group to come bearing supplies to help them survive for now, and I will find them other places to live. Safer places.”

The warrior nodded. He hesitated, briefly.

“A question?” Jak asked.

“Yes...do you truly think you can make peace with the karn?”

“I do. Once I find a way to break the embyr’s hold over them, Talon will help me unite them.”

Brentak’s face lit up with surprise and joy. “That old miserable bastard is still alive?!”

“He is...do you know him?”

“Yes!” He laughed and shook his head. “We fought. More than once. He...is an honorable karn. I never thought I would grow to respect a karn, but...I would much like to see him again.”

“I’m sure he’d like to see you. I’ll tell him of you.”

“I would appreciate it greatly.”

“All right, I have to go now. Get them used to the idea of leaving the mountainside, living elsewhere on the island, and, if at all possible, living alongside elves, magic-users, and possibly karn.”

“That last part will be difficult, but the first? We have known that this mountainside is dead for a few seasons now. Many are ready to leave. Many hunger. They will be sorry to leave, but not that sorry. Though, you should address them.”

Jak nodded. “That’s a good idea.”

He focused as he stepped back over to the Blood Stone, where the curved sheer wall of rock would help carry his voice to the others in the village below. His mind kept wanting to go in other directions. There was so much to do!

He noticed several people looked up immediately as he stepped into place.

“My new tribemates!” he called, and then everyone looked up at him. “I must depart to other parts of the island. As I have looked out over this village, the truth has been revealed to me: this village will not bear you through the winter. We must find new land for you live in. I will speak with the other tribes, and we will find safe places for you and your families to live and weather the cold days! While I am gone, Brentak will speak for me. Prepare yourselves! I will return!”

It sounded so strange, hearing his voice echoing over the village like that. He worried briefly about how the villagers would take it, but another cheer of ‘Tribemaster!’ sounded.

They seemed happy.

He could understand that. This place was bleak. It looked stripped, barren. There was hardly any plant life. Everything was rock and mud.

Once it had been a happy home, but no longer.

Now, they needed to adapt and make hard changes, just like everyone else on the island.

Jak walked back over to Brentak. “Their lives are in your hands while I’m gone,” he said.

He didn’t want to cut it so fine as to outright tell him that, but just as he was asking for trust, Jak was also putting a lot of trust in the old warrior.

“As it has been for many seasons,” Brentak replied easily. “Don’t worry, I will handle them well. We know each other, we trust each other. And they are happy. We’ve been aching for change for many seasons now. And it has finally come.”

Jak nodded and clapped him once on the shoulder, then began making his way down through the village.

The man was right.

For better or for worse…

Change had come to them all.

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The frigid wind that blew in off the tormented slate-gray waters felt like a dark omen as Jak made his way down the rocky shoreline.

It felt like he was always drawn back to this particular spot, as surely as the sun was drawn to the far horizon at the end of each day. This unassuming stretch of rock and earth, ever-changing beneath the eternal waves of the sea, tucked away on one corner of the island he now called home.

Jak paused in his determined strides down the shore as he reached a specific spot.

This was where it had all started for him.

His new life. His new self.

Though it had been a season since he’d awoken here, and it looked different than what his memory told him, he somehow knew that this was the spot where he had regained consciousness with a giant crow somewhere nearby.

A sharp caw drew his attention.

He looked up and ahead. The giant crow regarded him with a dark gaze from a tree branch that sagged under its weight.

Those eyes held warning.

In every other instance, he had heeded this warning.

But not today.

Jak resumed his walk, making his way towards the crow, preparing himself for the worst. He had no idea what would happen. It could be anything.

But he had to know.

Perhaps this was a bad time for it. The sun had risen and fallen fifteen times since he’d solidified his alliance with the elves of Ara Forest. And since he had murdered their leader. That was something he had grown to regret less as time had gone on.

Most dangers came from the outside. Creatures, rival tribes, bad weather, sickness.

But the worst dangers often came from within.

And the more he thought on it, the more Jak felt that a bad leader might be among the most lethal of all perils a tribe might face. It seemed to matter little if they were incompetent, lazy, greedy, or cruel, as it all amounted to the same thing.

A dying tribe.

After that, the war against the Tolvar had truly begun.

Jak had hardly been home to his village and his bond-mates since then. As a warrior, as the warrior on this island, as far as he knew, the responsibility to plan and personally lead assaults fell to him. And so he had fought, and battled, and bled, and killed.

From Ara Forest, over to Talon’s Hilltop, and down along the border between Avat’s Forest and the Barrens, he worked with every single ally he had gained so far to make the land safe, eliminate or drive off any hostile tribesmen, and then, more recently, stab out at the Tolvar. He’d led a dozen warparties over the last four days, assaulting any Tolvar they found, pushing the Tolvar’s territory back with a firm hand.

He didn’t like all the killing, but it was coming easier to him these days.

The crow let out another sharp caw, this one louder, and flapped its huge wings. Jak kept walking, making for the end of the coastline.

Something was there, something important, he was sure of it.

“I’m not stopping today,” Jak said as he approached the crow.

He expected it to attack him, and he didn’t want to kill it, the bird felt almost like a part of the tribe at this point.

But it did not attack.

It simply cawed again and then took to flight, flapping off in the direction he was headed.

Interesting.

Jak continued, picking up his pace, keeping an eye out for any threats even though he hadn’t actually run into anything living in this area save for the crow.

As interested as he was in what lay in the far corner of the island, he was more interested in what had initially pushed him out his village so soon after coming back.

The mysterious tall blue figure.

At this point, he was convinced she was real. He’d been asking around and several people had related seeing a tall blue-skinned figure, usually described as a woman, but often no more than a fleeting glimpse.

Somehow, in some way, the crow, the desolate corner of the island, and the blue woman were all connected.

Jak had never truly gone in search of her, and he was willing to leave it, but less so now. The situation on the island was moving inexorably towards some sort of end, things coming faster now, like a river during a heavy rain.

And that river was more dangerous.

Things that might not have caused problems before might do so under such conditions, and Jak was convinced he could no longer afford to put off the mystery.

Whatever this being was, they seemed very magical.

He wasn’t sure if this woman truly was a Spirit of the Forest, but that had started him down a path of thought that led him to where he was right now. When he had gone in search of the nymphs for the first time, that intentional investigation had drawn them out.

Perhaps something similar would happen with the blue woman.

As Jak neared the end of the rocky area, he saw that it reconnected with the curious trench that ran parallel to the shoreline. Coming into it, he looked back along its length. That trench had always bothered him, something about it seemed oddly unnatural. At times he’d wondered if it was the result of some very old spell gone wrong.

In his mind’s eye, he saw a massive fireball being released, an absolutely huge one, larger than a boulder, and racing down where the trench now was. He turned around, looking to where the trench ended. It was in the deader part of that corner of the island, and there was a rise in the land, almost as if it had been pushed up from underneath somehow.

Only a handful of skeletal trees lay scattered around.

He’d never been this close before.

Jak could feel something faint on the air, something magical that seemed to hum just beyond the edge of hearing.

What could it possibly be?

All of his thoughts were interrupted as he abruptly became aware of the fact that he was being watched. Spinning around, looking back across the trench to his forest, he caught a flash of blue among the trees.

He took off, sprinting across the trench and plunging into the forest.

Possibilities and potential outcomes raced through his mind as he dodged between the trees. So far, he hadn’t really run up against much that could outright kill him. Some had given him pause.

Some he hoped never to discover the answer to the question of: who would win? His nymph allies being a great example.

But this blue woman was a mystery. He didn’t actually know a thing about her, and what little he had gleaned wasn’t too useful.

He was learning things, though. Like the fact that she was either incredibly fast, incredible skilled at moving without being heard, or both. Beyond that initial glimpse, he saw nothing, heard nothing, and could find only the barest hints of a trail leading into the forest.

At one point he hesitated, looking around, uncertain of where to go, and he saw the briefest flash of blue to his left and took off again.

It quickly became obvious that this was not going to go the way he wanted it to, though as he picked up the pace, Jak thought he might be closing the gap. How fast was this...person? Spirit? Something else entirely?

He briefly saw the tall blue figure dash between two trees ahead of him, adjusted his course, and ran as fast as he could. As he kept going, he became aware of another sound: the heavy breathing and then the deep growl of a blade-toothed tiger.

It was somewhere farther off to his left. Something to keep track of, but for the moment he needed to stay focused on–

Jak skidded to a halt as he heard a shout of pain come from the direction of the blade-toothed tiger. Gritting his teeth, he was briefly torn. Though his recognition of the voice was very faint, he felt compelled to help, but he was catching up with the mysterious figure, or had been until he’d stopped. But even as he looked…

Directly ahead of him, partially obscured behind a tree and among some foliage, he caught sight of a very tall blue woman, staring at him, her single visible eye bright gray.

She had lured him he here, he realized at once.

Why?

To see what he would do? The choice was at least obvious: continue his pursuit of her, or go help whoever it was that was in peril.

With a short, irritated growl, Jak turned and began sprinting towards the sound of conflict, drawing his adze. He knew the tall blue woman would be gone by the time he tried to track her down again, but this had been a shaky prospect at best anyway.

Jak burst into a clearing a moment later and found a blade-toothed tiger looming over a familiar figure, who was lying on the ground, bleeding. Reacting on instinct, he hurled the adze towards the powerful beast. It flipped through the air, closing the distance between them in an instant, and buried itself in the huge tiger’s side.

The beast roared and reacted immediately, turning towards the thing that had hurt it.

Jak prepared himself for an intense battle, but the person he shared the clearing with surprised him by surging to her feet and leaping at the immense creature and burying a blade in its throat. She screamed as she yanked the blade sideways, opening up a huge wound on the tiger’s neck. It roared once again and managed to throw her off, but immediately began to weaken.

He moved forward to finish the job, if it needed doing, but as he got there the blade-toothed tiger took another few stumbling steps and then collapsed into a heap of fur and limbs, blood continually pouring from its torn neck.

Jak regarded the wounded woman who was repositioning herself so that she sat against a tree. One hand was over her thigh, which the tiger had cut open with its immense claws.

He recognized her, the embyr who had nearly killed him once.

“You’re hurt. We have some healers in my tribe,” he said as he crouched by the tiger and yanked his adze free.

“I can heal myself,” the embyr woman replied.

He saw a curiously dark flash of magic as she smoothed her hand out over her wound and when she pulled it back, the deep cuts had been sealed up.

For a long moment, the two of them remained motionless, staring at each other. Finally, her eyes dipped to the adze in his hand. Jak shook the blood from it, then slipped it back into his waistwrap. Stepping forward, he offered her a hand.

The embyr looked at it for another long moment, then reached up and took it. Her skin was hot and rough in several places, and as he helped her to her feet, he immediately got the sense that she was exceptionally agile. Something in the way she moved, in the way she articulated her body in regaining her feet.

He let go of her and took a step back, to give her some space.

She seemed less tense than their first meeting, but still very on guard.

“So,” Jak said, finally breaking the silence, “you came.”

“Yes,” she agreed, “I came. Though I’m not sure if it is to join your supposed tribe of exiles...I was more looking for a place of peace.” She pursed her lips in distaste as she looked down at the dead animal. “So much for that.”

“Avat’s Forest is probably one of the safest places on the island,” Jak said.

“I know,” she replied, returning her attention to him. “In truth, this was the first real opposition I’ve run into. I managed to avoid the rest. I’ve seen some of your people. Luckily they didn’t see me.”

Jak studied the woman as she fell silent again. She didn’t seem to want to leave, but she also seemed uncertain about how to proceed.

“We never learned each other’s names,” he said.

“You first,” she replied.

“Very well. I am Jak.”

“I am Keeza.”

“All right, what brought you to Avat’s Forest?”

He felt like he was in an awkward position. He had invited her here, and he would accept her into the tribe, but at the same time, he worried about what might happen if she was moving around the forest on her own.

He trusted his tribemates, but some had very bad thoughts about the embyr.

Then again, he’d been concerned about the Tolvar and the karn, and yet his home village now had half a dozen karn living among them.

“I spoke truth before: I seek peace. I want to live without being in constant battle,” she replied.

“Is that what living among your tribe was like?”

She lost any semblance of a smile. “In a manner of speaking, yes. Not all battles involve fists and clubs. Your offer sounded genuine, and from what I have overheard as I’ve hidden from...those less skilled at tracking than you or your karn companion, it seems that this forest is a place of peace and rest, at least compared to the rest of the island.”

“I would say that’s mostly accurate,” Jak replied.

“Mostly?”

He nodded at the tiger. “Beyond the beasts we share the forest with, there are the corrupted that come in from the Barrens, and the occasional Tolvar warparty that attacks. But if you leave my people and my allies in peace, they should return the favor.”

“I see.”

“So...are you an exile of your people?”

Behind her, he saw her tail shift, then begin to sway. “I thought we discussed that last time.”

“You didn’t give me a direct answer,” Jak replied.

She let out a small laugh. “I suppose not. And a direct answer is what you seek?”

“Yes.”

“Hmm.” She put her hands on her hips and fixed him with a strong look, an expression of mild amusement on her face now. Jak waited. She let out a short sigh. “Very well, that is twice you have had my life in your hands and given it back to me. The truth is: I walked away from my people, such as they are. I tire of their cruelty and their eternal war for dominance of this little island. They were not sorry to see me go. So I suppose I am an exile.”

“What do you intend?”

“I don’t know,” she admitted. “For now, I desire to live alone and be alone. I want to know who I am when I am around no others.”

“Will you leave my people in peace while you determine that?” he asked.

“Yes, if they do the same.”

“They should. I’ll let them know to leave you be. If there’s nothing else, I have other things to do,” Jak said.

“Wait...your offer to join your tribe, it is a truthful offer?” she asked.

“It is a truthful offer,” he confirmed.

She stared at him with her glowing red eyes. “I will think about it.”

He nodded and headed out of the clearing. For a moment, he considered trying to pick back up the trail of the blue woman, but he had already spent enough time out here as it was.

Jak headed north, towards his home, towards the women he loved.

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Victor fought to quell the anxiety as it grew somewhere deep in his gut as he led Hazel through the trees of the Hinterland.

“I wanted to thank you again for coming, I know you’re busy,” he said, pushing back a particularly large and low-hanging branch, allowing her passage.

“I’m not that busy,” Hazel replied, “and this is important. In truth, I wish you had told me sooner.”

“We’ve been busy with the inn and the ring seems to be working. It’s just, she said she should be awake in a week, and it’s now the eighth day…”

“These things can be unpredictable. Can you run it by me again?” Hazel asked. “You were a little, uh, light, on the details of some of this. She’s...where did you meet her, exactly?”

“Ilona is her name. We found her in a cave. She’s the necromancer who was sending the undead all over the place.”

“All right. The fact that you’ve got her ill and comatose in your inn means the meeting wasn’t hostile, I imagine.”

He shook his head, ducking under another branch. “No, she wasn’t. She’s sick. Lethally.”

“I got that part, and that’s it’s exclusive to elves. But did I understand this right? She intentionally cursed herself?” Hazel replied.

“Yes. To be undead. To buy more time.”

She let out a small laugh of appreciation. “She’s inventive. And brave.”

“I think more desperate in this case, but yes, she does seem brave.”

“All right. I’m not completely sure I’ll be able to help, though.”

“I know. I might be wasting your time, this might not even be necessary–”

“It’s fine, Victor. It isn’t a waste of time. Even if I can do nothing for the poor woman, I have been wanting to see you and the others, and visit your inn again.”

“We’ve made a lot of progress on it,” Victor replied.

“That’s good to hear.”

A lot of progress felt like a bit of an understatement. Having Nyx and now Delphine around so consistently meant that they’d been able to get much more done, and having Ilona there to care for and fret over had filled them all with a kind of intense, nervous energy.

They’d all been doing everything that needed doing, and consequently, work that he thought might take over a month or even two had been mostly wrapped up in little over a week. Delphine especially was working very hard.

There were times where it seemed like she was full of energy that she was trying to burn off, always asking for a new task and then going at it with an intense, almost ferocious focus.

It had been a trying time for all of them, but especially for Nyx.

At this point, the others were starting to pick up on it. Delphine seemed to be in the know, as she just gave an understanding expression whenever it became obvious that the stress was starting to get to Nyx, but Fiona and Jezzy still seemed confused and worried.

In a way, it was very surprising and gave a deep and, if anything, worrying view into just how much emotions and trauma could affect someone.

After five hundred years, he would have thought she’d be a lot more stoic.

It felt like a double-edged sword.

It was good that she still felt things, and intensely. That the relentless passage of time didn’t wear away who she was.

But it worried him that even fifty years from now he’d probably still have nightmares and have the occasional cry over what happened with his family.

When he’d asked her about it a few days ago, all she had to say was: It never goes away, but it does get easier.

“Oh wow, you have made a lot of progress here,” Hazel murmured as they at last broke through the dense vegetation of the Hinter.

Fiona had told him that they’d be able to clear a path to the main trail and maintain it with a bit of magic and some help from Fauna and a few friendly dryads.

They’d replaced the windows, the front door, fixed the roof and patched the holes in the walls. And thanks to a neat little spell that Nyx knew, the repairs looked seamless.

Speaking of Nyx…

“Oh my!” Hazel gasped as a shadow fell across them and Nyx landed heavily not far away.

“Sorry,” she replied, “but I’m glad you’re here.” She walked over. Her wings were flexing slowly open and closed behind her, and her tail was swaying. “How have you been? Your shop doing well?” She glanced back at the inn.

There was a slightly manic edge to her voice.

“Fine, and yeah,” Hazel replied. “...are you okay, Nyx?”

“I’m just nervous. I was out flying, trying to take my mind off things, but that didn’t help. I’m worried about Ilona...Victor told you, right?”

Hazel nodded. “He explained to me.”

“Okay, good. Will you look at her?”

“Yes.”

They all looked over as the front doors opened up and Jezzy came out.

“Is she awake?” Nyx asked before she could speak.

“No, no change, I’m sorry,” Fiona replied. “Hello, Hazel.”

“Hi, Fiona. Why don’t you show me to this dark elf, Ilona? I’ll see if there’s any insight I can offer,” Hazel suggested.

Fiona nodded. “This way.”

“Are you a healer?” Victor asked.

“I’m a witch,” Hazel replied as they all walked inside.

The main room was still fairly barren. Furniture was the last thing they needed.

“What does that mean, exactly?” Victor murmured, following them upstairs.

“That I have come across a great deal of knowledge in my lifetime, and that yes, I am a healer, when the situation calls for it. You mentioned a ring blessed by a God? I don’t think I’ll be able to outdo that, though.”

They came to the second story and as they approached the room Ilona was in, Fiona opened up the door and poked her head out.

“Hi, no change,” she said. “And hi Hazel.”

“Hi, Fiona,” Hazel replied.

They’d gotten used to saying that, ‘no change’, to Nyx, because she’d ask so often.

They tried not to crowd as Hazel came into the room. She took off her backpack and set it aside, then did the same with her traveling cloak. Victor studied Ilona as Hazel approached her bedside and sat down gently beside her.

She looked better, there was no doubt about that, and not just because they had removed her curse and all of its most obvious markings. Namely her veins being visible beneath her skin and a deathly pallor. She’d seemed generally less frail and fragile now.

But there was no denying the sickness and the curse had taken a heavy toll on her body.

Hazel touched her wrist for a moment. “Her heart beats regularly, if a bit slow,” she murmured, then put her own wrist to Ilona’s forehead. “Normal temperature.” She held her hand near her nose. “Breathing is a little shallow, but regular.”

Carefully, she leaned in and opened one of her eyes. Peering into it for a moment, she did the same with her other eye. “Her eyes seem fine. Has anything noteworthy happened since you cured her and put on the ring?”

“Not really,” Jezzy said.

“She shifted a little yesterday,” Nyx said. “And twice we heard murmuring, like she was having a bad dream. Once the day before yesterday and once the day after we put on the ring, if that has any significance.”

“Hmm.” Hazel laid her hand over the back of Ilona’s own hand, the one with the ring, and closed her eyes. An expression of concentration came onto her face. After a moment she stood back up, her eyes opening. “It’s doing its job, and it still feels intensely powerful.”

“So there’s nothing you can do?” Nyx asked.

“No. Normally I might try a little magic, but in truth I don’t want to interfere with the ring’s own magical properties. Although it looks like the curse has had no lingering effects on her body–whatever you did removed it completely–Black Cough is very serious. I’ve dealt with it before and I know that even if you manage to get your hands on the cure, it’s usually only a two in three chance that it’ll work.”

“Wait, so, it’s not a guarantee–” Nyx began, but Hazel shook her head.

“No, no, it’s okay. I mean...technically nothing’s a guarantee, but if there’s anything in this realm that can cure advanced Black Cough, it’s that ring. I can feel the raw magical energy. It’s just that this kind of sickness puts a heavy toll on the body. She just needs more time. I could be wrong, but I think she’ll wake up soon.”

“I can’t stand this godsdamned waiting,” Nyx growled. Her wings flexed suddenly and knocked over a chair. She sighed heavily. “Sorry.”

“It’ll be okay, Nyx. She’ll be okay,” Fiona murmured.

“I hope so.” Nyx heaved another sigh and walked out of the room abruptly. “I have to do something or I’m going to lose my patience.”

“Wait, don’t fly away,” Victor said, leaning out in the hallway after her. “I want to come with you. There’s something we need to do anyway.”

“Fine,” she said, heading back downstairs.

Victor turned back to face the others. “All right, I should keep this short with how impatient she is. Hazel: thank you for coming, it was good to see you, I’ll catch up with you later.”

“Same. And thanks for having me,” she replied.

He nodded. “Jezzy, Fiona: I love you, I’m going to go help Nyx keep busy.”

“We’ll be here,” Fiona said. “And I love you, too.”

Jezzy smiled. “You know I love you. Go be with her. See how Delphine’s divinations are going.”

He nodded. “Yeah, that’s what I was thinking. Uh…” He paused, considering the situation for a moment, just in case he was forgetting anything.

It had been a busy day.

A busy week.

“We’ll handle things here,” Jezzy said.

He nodded. “All right, thanks.”

Victor headed back downstairs. He still had his pack, his cloak, his gear from traveling down to Hearth Haven to ask Hazel for help. As he moved through the main room he looked around again and found his imagination roaming briefly.

It was easy to envision it full of tables and chairs, and people. People talking, people eating, people finding a place to get in out of the cold and enjoy some company. And, surprisingly, it was easy to envision himself being on the other side of that for once.

The person helping in the kitchen instead of looking into it occasionally while he waited for food or had a bit to drink.

That struck its own chord of anxiety, though.

He wasn’t so much worried about his role in the situation as he was worried about it not working. He’d become invested, emotionally speaking, but more to the point, he’d become invested in Fiona’s emotional investment in her dream.

When they’d talked earlier about the potential for failure, he’d believed what he’d told her: that there were any number of ways to manifest her dream of facilitating communication between village-dwellers and monsters, but…

It was obvious that this was a very big deal to her.

To all of them now.

Victor walked outside and found Nyx pacing back and forth. Well, they had some different priorities.

“What are we doing?” she asked as he came to stand before her.

“Let’s find Delphine,” he replied.

She nodded. “Yeah, okay.”

Without another word, she scooped him up in her arms and shot into the air, wings pumping as she gained dozens and then hundreds of feet.

And then they were sailing through the sky.

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“You know, I always heard that horses were supposed to be scared of demons,” Victor said as he finished tying the horse to the wagon.

“That’s just a story idiots like to pass around,” Jezzy said, smiling as she pet the horse that he had gone into town to rent.

She made a happy sound and shifted in place.

Jezzy giggled. “See? She likes me. She knows I’m nice.”

“We ‘monsters’, even succubi from another realm, tend to be more in tune with nature, which includes animals of all kinds,” Fiona said. She set her load into the back of the cart and proceeded to tie it down.

“Well, not all succubi,” Jezzy said. “One girl I knew was just terrified of birds. She was utterly convinced they were watching her. Planning something. I was so nervous when I first saw birds, because I’d only ever heard what she had to say about them. But they’re just...birds.”

“They don’t really have a plan beyond ‘eat’ and ‘sleep’,” Victor agreed as he finished up.

Fiona slithered up behind him. “And ‘mate’,” she murmured in his ear, wrapping her arms around him. She slowly slipped a hand down the front of his pants.

He exhaled sharply, feeling her large, bare breasts pressing against his back. “Yes...that too,” he managed.

“You’re getting bolder,” Jezzy grinned. She stepped away from the horse and up to him, and now he was surrounded by them. She settled her hands on his hips, grinning fiercely as she stared down at him with her glowing pink eyes.

“You both are...so tall,” Victor murmured.

“I love how much you like that about us,” Jezzy replied. “Can I tempt you to take a break? Do naughty things behind that tree over there?’

“You can but you shouldn’t.”

“Why not?”

“Because you’re sending me in there to try and talk Hazel into some fun and I’d rather save it for the potential foursome or threesome, depending on how much Fiona wants to watch,” he replied.

“I won’t know until we’re actually in the moment,” Fiona murmured. She sighed and took her hand out of his pants. “And that’s fair enough.”

“Yes, I suppose so,” Jezzy said. She gave him a kiss, then stepped back. “I like this horse, but it’s too bad we had to spend so much coin on it…”

“We had to,” he replied, “we can’t very well have you hauling this into town. People would lose their minds. Now, I should really get to work selling this stuff off. The sooner I get to it, the sooner I’ll be back. Hopefully with Hazel.”

“Unless there’s some kind of emergency, I imagine she will come back with you once she knows I’m back around,” Jezzy replied.

“I hope so.” He kissed them both and then hopped up onto the cart.

Getting settled, he began guiding the horse and they started the slow roll into the township proper. He took the opportunity to just relax for a little bit. That was what yesterday was supposed to have been: relaxation.

Only it hadn’t.

Not that he was complaining, exactly.

After the long day of getting everything back from the abandoned mine, the four of them had decided to just take it easy for a bit. But when all four people involved in ‘taking it easy’ were horny, and one of them was a succubus, there tended to be a lot of sex happening. And what was supposed to be a day of rest had turned into a lot of exciting lovemaking.

Victor yawned and rubbed at his eyes as he tried to rouse himself.

Velena had finally parted ways with them last night. Fiona said she tended to get flighty after spending too much time in one place, and sure enough, she’d sort of just left after a quick and abrupt goodbye.

Fiona had told him not to take it personally, and in truth he could respect the feeling.

Victor reached into his pocket and checked that the parchment was still there. It was. They had actually done the responsible thing after she’d left and made a complete list of everything they needed to finish repairing the inn.

Tools, nails, lumber, doors, windows, furniture, and a bunch of other odds and ends.

He was pretty confident they wouldn’t get it all. In truth, they’d be lucky to get half of it, even with the haul from the mine, but it would be another big step forward and they weren’t exactly in a rush to get this done.

As the Hinterland drifted by to either side of him, he found his thoughts drifting. Today was the first day he’d had of alone time in what felt like a while. And now that he was by himself and relatively safe, he could think more on where his life had taken him.

It had brought him to strange places over the years.

Mostly good places, some really, really bad places. At times he felt like he was leading his own life, but at others he felt like he was as helpless to control the course of his existence as a shipwreck victim clinging desperately to a piece of driftwood in a storm.

Victor had gone a lot of places, seen a great deal, had many adventures, but he never really thought he’d end up in the Hinterlands, romantically involved with not one, but two monster girls, repairing an old inn.

Unlikely didn’t seem like a strong enough word to describe the situation.

This, however unlikely it seemed, felt different than every other adventure he’d found himself in over the years.

An adventurer’s life was, by default, a wanderer’s life.

But there was an extra layer of intensity to that fact when the adventurer had no home to return to. Victor had actually encountered many adventurers who intended to return to their home village and settle back down some day. And even some who did return and stay for a season out of the year. There were some who intended to adventure until they died, but they were rare.

It always seemed to him that the adventurers who had no home to return to were of that last variety, but he supposed it was possible that he had simply met those adventurers and spoken with them at a point before they did eventually settle down.

Was that what he intended to do here?

Could he live out his days in an inn situated in the Hinter?

The fact that he didn’t immediately think no was giving him a bit of anxiety, and he couldn’t even figure out why.

Was it because he had grown so used to the idea that, eventually, he would move on?

It could be that simple, but he somehow doubted that it was.

As Hearth Haven came into view, Victor pushed the thoughts from his head. For the moment, he had a very long stretch of bargaining, negotiating and, perhaps, intimidating in front of him, depending on how much the merchants thought they could take advantage of him. He wasn’t really prone to that last one, but…

He wasn’t above it.

He needed a clear head for this next part, Fiona and Jezzy were relying on him.

Victor reined in his temper. “No,” he repeated, “I don’t want that one. Just these.”

“Are you sure?” the shopkeeper asked again.

“I’m completely, absolutely sure. And I promise, if I ever want that window, I will march promptly back to this store and purchase it.”

“Well, if you’re sure.”

“I’m sure.”

“All right. Well, it’s two hundred fifty coins even for the rest,” the shopkeeper said.

Victor nodded and dropped two of his one hundred coin pouches, his final two, in fact, and a fifty coin pouch on the counter between them. The merchant picked each up and weighed them in his hand, then peered inside, then made it all disappear behind the counter.

“Thanks for the business,” he said.

“Yep,” Victor replied, and picked up the first of the five windows he’d purchased. He had wanted more, but this was the last of his coin for now.

He began shifting them out to the cart.

The journey through town had lasted longer than he’d feared. It had been a complicated route along the cobblestone roads, making a stop at each of the varied places he needed to visit, to both sell and buy. Given he wasn’t as familiar with the town yet, it was a bit stop and start as he just went to the stores as he saw them.

And just about all of the merchants had been difficult in one way or another.

Given how much experience they all no doubt had with adventurers coming through, each had honed their skills to a fine art, able to extract much and give little in return. Victor had his own methods for dealing with their tactics, but at this point he was just getting sick of it. He wasn’t even thirty yet, but inside these stores he began to feel like a grumpy old man.

Victor noted that now that the shopkeeper had his coin, the man made no move to help load the leather-wrapped windows into the cart. Not that he particularly wanted help at this point, if he had one more poor interaction he was liable to do something regrettable, but it was just one more irritating thing on a long list of them.

Finally, he got the last window in and secured.

Before anything else could annoy him, Victor got up into the seat and set the horse towards Hazel’s place. He glanced skywards. The sun was a few hours past its highest point. He relaxed a little. Despite how long it had taken, there was still more than enough time to talk with Hazel, get out of the town, return the horse, and then get to the inn and relax.

And maybe do other things.

A few moments later, he brought the cart to a halt and put the horse in the shade. Walking in through the front door into the darkened shop, he felt a strange sensation. Not of anything magical, but of the passage of time.

With all that had happened, it felt like he’d been here last season, not last week.

“Well, look who’s back.”

Hazel was again standing behind the counter, this time working on a potion. She had a little cluster of small glass containers, each filled with a different kind of liquid, centered around one glass vial held upright.

“I missed you,” he replied, walking slowly closer, not wanting to mess up her work.

But she seemed a pro at it, able to continue on with the work and conversation and other distractions at the same time.

“Did you now?” she murmured, pouring some glowing blue liquid into the vial.

“Very much so.”

She laughed softly. “Took you long enough.”

“I was, uh, busy out there.”

“Oh were you now?” She picked up another glass bottle with a murky green liquid and swirled it around, then paused and sniffed. She looked up at him with her glowing eyes and a broader grin spread slowly across her beautiful face. “You found a girl with horns out there.”

“And a tail,” he replied. “Two girls with tails, actually.”

“Oh my.” She focused on the potion again. “One moment.” She carefully poured five drops of the green liquid into it, then began corking everything. “Care to share the details?”

“Well, there was a lot of fucking,” Victor replied.

“I figured as much.” She leaned down, putting the containers under the counter.

She was wearing an especially revealing shirt, and her pale breasts seemed to threaten to tumble out each time she leaned down.

“I found Jezzy,” he said.

She laughed. “Knew it! Knew that girl would find you. I was hoping she was back...hmm. Who is the other girl with a tail? Another succubus?”

“No, a viper named Fiona.”

“Oh my. Most men would admit to making love with a succubus, but I knew few men who would seek out a viper...fewer still who would openly admit to being intimate with one.” She picked up the vial and swirled it around gently a few times, then corked it and placed it under the counter. Hazel fixed him with a confident smile and an intense stare. “But I knew there was something special about you as soon as you walked in here...I’ve never met Fiona, but I do know of her. Jezzy has told me. She sounds sweet.”

“She really is,” he replied.

“Oh.” Hazel gave him a more appraising stare.

“What?”

“I’ve heard that tone before. You...are something truly special, aren’t you?”

He laughed awkwardly. “I...don’t know. Am I?”

“You traveled here from who knows how far away to fuck monster girls. Rare, but not unheard of,” she replied.

“How did you know, by the way?”

“I guessed. Just a strong feeling. But,” she continued, “I have come across almost no one who is willing to have a romantic relationship with monster girls. It’s difficult enough for most to contemplate building a life and sharing a home with a different race, but a village-dweller and a forest-dweller? Almost never.”

“Really? That rare?” he asked.

“Yes. I spent a lot of time traveling the land. Occasionally I still do. As a witch, I’m more accepted among the forest-dwellers. And yes, they tend to stay on their sides of the line.” She regained that smile. “Have you been with anyone else?”

“A harpy.”

“Oh my.”

“And a gekon adventuress.”

“You get around.”

“Apparently,” he replied.

“So, is that why you’re here?” she asked, putting her hands on her pleasantly sized hips.

“Yeah. I was hoping to get around to you. Jezzy said you can’t stay away from her and you’d do anything to be with her again, so I should use that as a lure to get you to come spend time with us out in the Hinter,” he said.

“Oh that pink bitch,” Hazel muttered, rolling her eyes. “She thinks she’s so great.”

“...she is,” Victor said. “Having been with her now, I feel like I can safely confirm that.”

Hazel laughed. “Yeah, but she’s still annoying!”

“Because she’s right?”

“Not as right as she thinks...but yes, I do want to get back with her. And I must say that the idea of taking you and her to bed at the same time is exceptionally appealing to me.” She looked around her shop. “Okay, go on and wait for me. I’ll wrap everything up here and then I will join you for some fun in the woods.”

“Very glad to hear that,” he said, heading for the exit.

This was going to be a really good night.

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Jak found evidence of his target along the outskirts of the woodlands.

He crouched in the shadow of a large boulder, staring at the trees and dense vegetation ahead of him, considering his options.

This was Ara Forest, a place he knew he was not welcome.

His tribe now numbered over one hundred people, almost twenty of them elven, and every elf had told him the same thing: non-elves were not welcome in their home forest. Stories of incursion by the exiles who had come to call the Dektyr Tribe home ended the same: elves eventually arrived and forced them to leave.

What changed was the severity of the response. The most recent of his new tribemates, a human woman and her half-elf son who had been exiled after years of an awkward stalemate of protection due to her status as a skilled healer, had said they were very nearly killed by the elves who found them when they had been hiding in the forest.

Given he was fully intending to try making peace with them, he was reluctant to risk a violent encounter.

On the other hand, he really wanted to find the exile he’d been seeking for the past two days.

Finally, with one more survey of the immediate area, Jak left the relative safety of the boulder and began making for the treeline.

Something about the forest set him on edge, and as he drew closer, it occurred to him that it was the differences. Ara Forest looked different than Avat’s. The trees were of a contrasting breed, their coloring strange and almost, but not quite, familiar. Their tops were sharper, more pronounced, their profiles narrower.

The forest floor, he saw as he slipped within the woodlands, was denser. There were more places to hide for predator and prey alike. As he began hunting around for the trail again, Jak let his senses open up, taking in the strange new forest around him.

Sights, sounds, scents.

Secrets.

All of it feeding him crucial information and helping shape the world around him.

Paying attention, listening for that tiny twig snapping, that branch being shifted, the soft huffing of an animal, smelling the scent as the wind shifted, catching the barest hint of movement among the vegetation, anything could provide a wary hunter with that one crucial second of warning needed that meant the difference between brutal death and survival.

There.

He saw the imprint of a bare foot, a bit narrow, an elf.

The one he was tracking. The trail made for the northeast, heading away from the core of the forest, thankfully. As Jak began following, eyes continually roving over the landscape around him, he found his thoughts drifting uncertainly, like a branch tossed into the sea.

Things were different now.

Not all of them. In some ways his life had taken on a reassuring regularity.

After killing the Tolvar war chief and helping Ripper and his small tribe of karn exiles retake their village, he had been ready to go on the hunt for allies in the war against the Tolvar that had been transforming from embers and sparks to true flames.

Except other things had demanded his attention.

Just a few days after that, a sickness had hit his tribe and spread through it like a wildfire during a drought. It was nothing truly serious, just a cough and a fever and lethargy. Just about everyone had fallen ill over the course of the following days, and it was very random who was affected and how. Rylee just had a cough and mild fever for a day, while Niri had been unable to leave their cave for very long for several days in a row.

He had begun to seriously worry, but Rylee reassured him again and again that she would be fine. Sometimes people got sick. But with pregnancy, he’d tasted fear in a way he never had before. To make matters worse, as one of only three people who had never gotten sick, (Nessa and Kes were the other two), he’d been run ragged just trying to keep up with the normal day-to-day affairs of the tribe. Gathering water and food, provided security, and hunting down plants to help relieve the suffering of his people.

As the sickness had faded and regular life resumed, Jak still found himself running around Avat’s Forest, dealing with problems.

A few particularly dangerous beasts had been found that needed to be put down.

Sometimes someone went missing and had to be tracked down.

Rylee would need a rare plant.

One of the builders or toolmakers would need a rare rock or gemstone or wood.

He’d also taken on the project of setting up a second defensive outpost, this one to the northwest, in the spot that Ripper and his people had originally holed up in.

This string of projects and tasks had revealed in him something Jak was still grappling with. Within him were two core desires.

One was a man who wanted to lead and conquer, to keep pushing, to take the fight to the enemies and bathe in their blood.

The other was a man who wanted to sit by the fire with his tribemates, to hunt game to provide for his people, to lay in his cave with his bond-mates and talk quietly for hours, to stare at the shadows dancing on his cave ceiling as he laid awake at night, listening to Niri and Rylee and Nessa as they slept around him.

That second man was who he had settled into after the sickness had forced him to stick close to his village or risk losing it, and after spending several nights staring long into the fire, considering this, Jak had decided this was the man he wanted to be.

If he was given a choice, he would chose this life.

But he knew that he was not being given a choice, and although the victory at the old karn village and the lack of a serious response from the Tolvar for a few weeks had given him the illusion of peace, even a temporary one, it had been shattered several days ago by another large attack. They had handled it, but it had rekindled the blazing fire of war that had been ignited in him during that final attack. He needed to act.

Stepping out of his cave the morning following the attack, Jak had felt the change in a number of ways, but mostly he felt it as he looked up at the trees surrounding his village and, for the first time, truly realizing that they were dying.

The long decay had begun.

The transition between summer and winter, life and death, had commenced.

It was still a ways off, but now it was on everyone’s minds.

And the chill wind that blew through the village that morning seemed to herald the call of responsibility, of the coming war.

Like a shadow cast over them all.

And so he had stepped up his efforts to find more tribemates, no longer waiting for them to come to him, or for his people to stumble across them while out hunting or foraging. Instead, he organized small search parties and sent them out to track down potential recruits of all kinds. And this was how he had nearly doubled the size of his tribe over the past month.

Jak paused as he heard something, his hand going for his adze.

Something shifted in the bushes to his left. He waited, still as a stone, watching, wary.

After a long moment passed, the gray blur of a rabbit suddenly shot out and away, fleeing into the undergrowth.

He resumed his journey, hunting for the elf known as Lekken.

Most of the recruits that they’d gained came from stories the newer tribemates had to tell. People they had seen while on their way there, evidence of camps in valleys or groves or small copses, tales of exiles trying to go it alone.

Three times now he had heard of an elven exile who saved others in dangerous situations, then disappeared.

Curiosity and practicality had pushed him to grab his survival pack, kiss his bond-mates farewell, and strike out to the north.

Someone like this would be a boon to his tribe.

Thoughts of peace and alliances weren’t far from his mind, either. As he stalked through the trees, still getting used to the new scents and general vibe of Ara Forest, he lamented over the difficulties so far.

Although the peace made with the nymphs and Ripper was invaluable, he knew that more was needed. Much more.

And so far no one had been able to make any real progress with regards to a broader alliance.

The elves were mysterious and elusive, shut up in their forest, refusing entry to all not like themselves.

The karn were divided, not just between those who were under the control of the embyr and those who weren’t, but even farther between those who believed in the ways of Redtooth and those who did not.

The valt clan lived on the entire other side of the island and may not even be there anymore.

Tracking down the mysterious Lekken seemed to be a decent first step in finding his way into the Jari Clan of the elves. He still wasn’t entirely convinced that he shouldn’t just walk into their village and ask to speak with their leader about the obvious danger threatening to consume the whole of the island, but every elven exile he’d spoken to said this would be a very bad idea.

Jak stopped again. The trail he had been following had ceased abruptly.

He drew his adze and slowly looked around, paying careful attention to every detail of his surroundings.

For a reason he did not quite know, he felt positive he was following Lekken. Just a feeling, something in his gut saying it was so.

If this elf was as evasive as the stories made him out to be, then he was no doubt aware that he was being followed.

Jak was good at tracking and moving stealthily through the forest, and he thought himself an expert at it, but based on some of the things he had seen his elven tribemates do, he knew the general level of tracking and stealth was higher among elves.

So someone known for it might be even better than him.

Finally, he saw evidence that his quarry had climbed a nearby tree. He looked up. The leaves and branches were dense, hiding much.

Jak decided to try for the honest approach and put his adze away.

He could sense someone nearby, even if he couldn’t see them.

“I know you’re here,” he said, “and I just want to talk.”

The silence that persisted went on for long enough that Jak began to wonder if maybe he was sensing something else.

And then a slim figure dropped from a tree to his left and landed lightly on the ground.

It took a lot of willpower not to draw his weapon again and shift into a defensive stance. Instead, Jak turned to face this man.

He was indeed an elf. He was a little taller than the average elf, slim, built of lean, compact muscle. His blonde hair was cut very short, and the smear of ash around his eyes gave him away. Jak had distant memories of his old tribe applying warpaint sometimes. All the stories of Lekken had described him with a dark slash across his eyes.

“You are the Amber Warrior I’ve heard so much about,” he said.

“And you are Lekken,” Jak replied.

The elf looked mildly surprised. “I have saved enough of my people that it does not surprise me that my description has reached your ears, but my name?”

“Jayna told me about you.”

Lekken stiffened slightly. Jak noticed he was holding a strangely shaped stick of some kind, and something was slung over his shoulder. It was familiar, but he couldn’t quite place it. He knew, however, that it was a weapon of some sort.

“And how is Jayna?” he asked.

“She lives. She’s happy. We found her some suns ago at the edge of Avat’s Forest, leading a small group of exiles. She joined my tribe,” Jak replied.

Lekken seemed to be studying him closely, no doubt trying to read him for lies.

“I see. Why was she exiled?” he asked.

“She didn’t say beyond the fact that she ‘displeased the Xentan’.”

Lekken bared his teeth. “That seems to be happening more often now…” He refocused on Jak. “Why are you following me?”

“I want you to join my tribe,” Jak replied.

“Why should I?”

“We seek peace for the island, and we could use your help. Everyone who has spoken of you has talked of your great skill as a warrior and a hunter. We have several of your people at our village.”

He tensed again. “And how do you treat my people?”

“I treat them as my own: well. They are not treated any differently because they are elves.”

“Hmm. And how do you propose peace for this island?”

“Kill the Tolvar, and probably the embyr tribe in the west, and make peaceful alliances with all others.”

Lekken laughed bitterly. “If you think you can make peace with the karn who inhabit this island, you are sadly mistaken.”

“I already have made peace with a group of karn. And I am mated to a karn. And, just in case you have heard the rumors: no, I cannot control karn. They work with me of their own will.”

Lekken stared at him for a long moment. He seemed not to be able to decide what to say in response to that. “If you truly wish for me to join your tribe, then I have a requirement. Something I need to do right now. And if you want me to consider your request, you’ll help me.”

“What is it?” Jak replied. He was used to this by now. Everyone always wanted something from him, and it was usually help finding or killing something.

“The Tolvar have been taking my people captive. I don’t know why. But it does not matter. Some were taken this morning. One managed to get away and found me, told me about it. I’ve been tracking them ever since. I think I’ve almost found them. Help me free them and kill the Tolvar who took them captive and I will journey with you to your village, and seriously consider your request.”

“I accept these terms,” Jak said.

“Good, follow me.”

The two men headed off into the forest.

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The persistence of the ocean had become just another sound in the collection of noises that Jak had come to live with since awakening on the shores of this island on that cold, dismal night. The sounds of life rose and fell in cadence with the cycle of day and night. The calls of the birds, the whistling of the winds, the rustling of the canopy, occasionally the patter of rain, and, though it was the most unerring of all, the distant crash of the ocean as it beat upon the shoreline had been reduced both by distance and familiarity.

As Jak now approached that exact same coast where his old life had terminated and his new life had begun, he found himself mesmerized by the waves. At first by the sound of them and then, with even more power as he came out of the trench that had once been his home and came to stand at the place where the dirt met the rocky shore, by the sight of it.

The vast ocean.

He stood staring, listening, feeling at once both a strange serenity and a distant fear.

Though he knew it not to be true, the expanse of water seemed to have no end. It felt impossible. It felt unthinkably massive. It felt…

Old.

Ancient.

Older than the trees. Older than the rocks. Older even than the dirt he walked upon every single day. Older than the cave he called home.

Perhaps even older than the sky.

Jak wasn’t sure how long he stood there, enraptured by the ceaseless repetition of the waves as they rolled eternally towards the island, but at some point, the loud, familiar caw of a certain giant crow broke his meditative state.

He looked around, first at the shore itself, locating the exact spot where he had awoken. Time was a difficult subject, at times, often in examination of memories, it seemed strangely disordered and also impossibly lengthened or shortened. It felt unthinkable to him that he had awoken on this shore less than the passing of a season ago, when it felt like a whole winter should have come and gone since then.

Was this a result of his memory loss, or simply a part of life?

In the month that had passed since the founding of his tribe, Jak had learned that there were some common experiences or thought patterns that he had to adjust to both due to his lost memories and also to what little he could remember of his life before. It was clear that the life he had lived was very different from just about everyone else he had met.

With a soft sigh, Jak turned away from the spot on the shore that would seem no different to anyone else, and looked south.

It grew a bit more barren down that way. He saw a mostly dead tree standing skeletal against the blue sky. This was where the crow perched, staring at him. Although it was an animal, Jak felt he could read something in its stance, its piercing black eyes.

Something ominous.

Almost a threat.

Do not come this way.

“Why?” he murmured.

When Jak had set out on this task of coming to see the place where his new life had begun, in the cold, in pain, in isolation, he hadn’t had much thought of why beyond he wanted to do it and he had the time to.

But now that he was here, some part of him, small yet powerful, wanted to walk farther south. To follow the shore to its end and see what was there.

Because he was certain something was there.

Jak began walking. The crow cawed at him, sharply, the sound carrying well over the hiss of the waves.

It sounded like a threat...or perhaps a warning.

Like a wolf growling deep in its throat if you drew too close to the meat it was eating.

Jak slowed, and then when the crow flapped its immense wings a few times and cawed again, he finally stopped. It was still a good distance off, and the place he wanted to go was farther than that, out of sight, hidden by a collection of trees. He looked from the trees to the large bird that was, at this point, almost a resident of his tribe by proxy. The huge black bird was seen almost daily by someone around the tribe, and Jak still had the curious impression that it was, in some way, not just watching out for his tribe, but smart enough to.

And now it was warning him away.

So far, it had yet to lead him astray. That didn’t mean he fully trusted it, but he trusted his instincts, and to this day, they told him that the crow was trying to help. He still wasn’t entirely convinced it wasn’t a Spirit of the Forest, or perhaps some strong magic-user’s pet, or thrall. That didn’t necessarily mean it was secretly evil or part of some plan against him, but it also didn’t mean it was fully trying to help him.

Something was happening on this island, something somehow relating to him. He was convinced of it at this point. His first memory was of a strange, blue figure standing over him on the shore. And since then, that figure had met him in his dreams and nightmares more than once. He had the impression that it was trying to help him, but it had more of an air of mystery than he was comfortable with.

Of course, it was possible that all of this was a manifestation of a damaged mind. Perhaps he was imagining some of it, and simply assigning meaning to random events for the rest. Jak finally turned around and started walking back.

As he did, he smiled.

Though he had grown increasingly distracted by the sounds of the ocean, Jak had not missed the fact that he was being followed by someone who thought they were more quiet than they truly were. He paused as he neared the trench cut into the landscape.

“I know you’re there, Niri. Come out,” he said.

There was a lingering pause, and then the slim elf stepped out from behind a tree. “How did you know?” she demanded.

“You’ve developed your abilities much since we first met, but you have to remember that my hearing and senses are better than almost everyone else on this island,” he replied.

She sighed heavily and then lost any sense of irritation, instead becoming awkward. “Are you mad, that I followed you?”

“No,” he replied. “I am curious, though.” He walked over to her.

“I wanted to see where you were going,” she said. “And also…”

“Also?”

“I wanted to visit the cave. Our cave. And the log.”

“We can do that,” he said.

She smiled. “Good! Let’s go!”

Jak laughed and they set off down the trench, sticking to the left side of it, which began to rise upwards the farther along they went. They walked alongside the earthen wall, and already Jak was remembering their first meeting. How he had saved Niri, and how he had gradually begun to understand the scope of the situation on the island.

“You seem different,” Niri said after several moments of silence.

“Different today? Or in general?” Jak replied.

“In general.”

“How?”

“I guess I noticed it when I was following you. It’s the way you move, the way you walk. You used to be more...wary, I guess. You’d look around more. But now it’s like you aren’t worried about anything. You’re calmer, but at the same time, still really aware? It is hard to describe. Looking at you from a distance, I had the impression that if I wanted to sneak up on you and attack you, it would be a bad idea. Maybe it’s just because I know you so well, but I think I would think that even if you were a stranger. And apparently I was right. You knew. Was it the whole time?”

“Yes,” he replied.

“How?”

“It’s hard to describe. I think part of it has to do with the fact that I know you so well. I can just tell when you’re following me.”

“Hmm.”

“Does that annoy you?”

She sighed. “Maybe a little. Maybe I want to sneak up on you at some point and surprise you. You’ve done it to me more than once.”

He laughed. “I don’t really mean to.”

“If you say so...I think you do it on purpose at least a little, sometimes.”

“Maybe,” he admitted. “You’re kind of fun to startle.”

“Fine, but that means I get to do things like this!” She broke away from his side and leaped onto his back. Jak caught her easily, supporting her and getting her settled almost instinctively at this point. She’d taken to doing it a lot, and so had Rylee after Niri had set the standard. He was strong enough that it didn’t bother him, and having them in all their soft, feminine glory pressing against his back as he carried them around (usually to the bedding), made the experiences pleasant ones. He carried her along the way and then up the path that led to the cave he, her, and Rylee had originally called home. As they neared the top, he let her down.

His senses were finely tuned, but there existed things, and people, who slipped past them, and it usually was a good idea to remain cautious.

Jak listened for a few seconds, then peered into the cave. He relaxed when he saw there was nothing and no one inside.

“It’s safe,” he said, walking within. Niri joined him.

The two walked deeper in, eventually coming to a halt near the center of the small cave, and for a moment, simply stood there, looking around.

The remains of their bedding was still there to be seen, the remnants of their fire, a few broken pots and tools, and, most prominent of all: Niri’s cave drawing. It seemed much simpler compared to works that she had done since then, mainly because it was done entirely in charcoal, and they had since found flowers to turn into a paste that could provide all sorts of color. Even still, it looked masterful to him, a simple yet elegant depiction of a pair of deer near some trees and a little watering hole, all of it beneath a sun and some clouds.

“You came back, didn’t you?” he murmured.

“I did,” she replied, then smile broadly. “I’m so happy you can tell.”

“You’re very skilled at this. It’s hard to be anything but amazed.”

“There are many things I love about you,” Niri said, looking at him now, “but that you appreciate my drawing, my painting...that one is a thing I really love about you.” She paused, frowned a little. “Maybe that is selfish. One of the things I like about you most is how you like an aspect of me.

“It’s not selfish, Niri,” he replied. “You aren’t a selfish person. You don’t have to worry about that.” He glanced past her, out the entrance to the cave, judging the quality of the light. The sun had not yet reached its apex, but it was getting there, and today was the day he wanted to have a meeting about the future of the tribe. Or at least the next step. “We should be going.”

“Okay,” she said. She took his hand and let him lead her out of the cave.

It was interesting, he thought, how much she trusted him. He’d done his best to imprint upon her the need to rely on her own senses and instincts more than any one person, and she had clearly taken them to heart, but he could tell she still trusted him implicitly to keep her safe. He would, there was no question of that, but he knew it was a situation to be observed. He was not perfect, not unstoppable. And the thought of losing her or Rylee, or Nessa now…

Was unbearable.

Nessa. He hadn’t seen her in a week, and although she had yet to dedicate herself to either him or their tribe, Jak could sense a strong, intense bond between the two of them. One that she was working towards consummating.

He wasn’t entirely sure what she was doing out there, sometimes beyond Avat’s Forest, beyond the fact that it had something to do with her people and helping them, trying to unify them somehow, and that it was dangerous. She tended to show up every few days, often injured but in high spirits. Mostly. When they were alone, she was happy to be there with him, but she admitted she was failing in her chosen task, and it was getting to her.

That he hadn’t seen her for almost a week bothered him, and soon he would need to go looking for her if she didn’t return.

They slowed as they reached the clearing that held the hollowed-out log they’d once, briefly, called home.

The two of them walked up to the entrance. To the untrained eye, there was nothing to show it had ever housed anyone, but Jak could see a tiny bit leftover. A few impressions in the dirt and plants left behind, largely protected from the elements.

“This was the first place we ever shared intimacies,” he said. “Do you think this was where you became pregnant?”

Niri smiled and looked down, laying both hands across her bare stomach, which was still smooth and taut. “Perhaps,” she murmured. “Maybe it was in the cave. Or the waterfall.” She looked back up at him. “We’ve shared intimacies in so many places.”

“Yes, we have.” He turned his attention away from the log and focused on her. He put one hand over both of hers. She moved them out of the way and laid his hand flat against her stomach, then held it with her own. “You are sure?” he asked.

“I am sure,” she replied, smiling. “We both are. We each have missed our time of bleeding.”

“I’ve never actually asked, but...why does that happen?”

She lost her smile, looking irritated. “We elves are told that it is a form of giving to the Forest. If we are not pregnant, then the Forest demands a small portion of us, and that is how it takes it. But now that I have spoken with Rylee and several other former Tolvar women, I find myself more inclined to believe them.”

“What do they say?”

“That it is a punishment, for not engaging in the planting of seeds enough, for not bearing fruit. Given that it always hurts my stomach, and how easy it is to become angry or irritable while it happens...yes, I am inclined to believe Rylee, though it would make no sense for an elf also to experience it if it is a Tolvar punishment. I truly don’t know why it happens, only that if it stops happening, it means that we have become pregnant. That is the only thing that can stop it. Even then, it will start up again at some point after giving birth.”

“I’m sorry, it sounds miserable.”

“It really is. But,” she said, looking down at herself once more and regaining her smile, “it doesn’t matter. Because I am pregnant, because you planted your seed in me, and it took root. And I have never been happier. I know Rylee is so happy, too. We talk about it a lot.” She brought his hand up to one of her cheeks and nuzzled it. “I can’t think of anyone I would rather have planted his seed in me,” she murmured.

“I’m very happy about this as well, Niri,” Jak replied.

“I know. I’ve gotten so that I can read you...most of the time. You hide your feelings well, but I can at least tell you are happy about this. Now, we should get back to the village, because I can tell when you are getting impatient to get back to work.”

He laughed and kissed her forehead. “I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be. I like being out here with you, it’s just…”

“It’s just that you run an entire village, your own tribe, and that is much work. It’s okay. I understand.”

“I appreciate it.”

They shared a kiss, and then began walking back through the forest.

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“I’d like you to remember that it is still being worked on,” Sadie said as the two of them approached the front door.

“Don’t worry, I’m keeping it in mind,” Gabe replied.

He looked up at the house, still impressed by it. If it hadn’t been for the fact that he could see Sadie waiting in her car in the driveway, he would have been sure he didn’t have the right house. Or the right neighborhood.

A cold wind gusted and kicked up some of the remaining snow as they stepped up onto the front porch and Sadie slid her key into the lock.

“I hate winter,” she murmured, unlocking the door and hurrying inside.

“It’s nice to be inside, at least,” Gabe replied.

He followed her in and heard her laugh softly. “I imagine a lot of life’s troubles must seem rather pale when you have two very attractive, very sexually active women living with you. Let alone four,” she replied.

“That’s a fair point,” he replied, shutting the door and looking around.

Gabe was finally getting the first real look at the house that, at this point, almost certainly was going to be his.

Well, not just his, but his and Ellen’s and Holly’s, and possibly Krystal’s and Liz’s too.

Even now, it still felt impossible.

Three weeks had passed since Krystal had gone back home to seriously discuss the possibility of moving back to Krystal’s hometown and enter into a relationship with three other people that she’d technically never met before. He’d expected more communication from Liz given this development, but she hadn’t really done more than text a few times. Gabe would have been worried about it if he wasn’t still in pretty constant contact with Krystal.

She wouldn’t stop texting and calling.

Now that they’d had some time apart and he’d really examined it, he could see that Ellen was right about the two of them: Krystal was really into him. He could hear it in her voice when she called him and read it in all the messages she sent him. He was actually starting to worry that someone was going to get jealous but the problem hadn’t manifested. At least not visibly. That was what really worried him: he might just be missing it.

There was a part of him that was afraid that Liz would hate him, or at least be really upset with him in some capacity, because of how much Krystal was into him.

But aside from this new development in the curious thing his sex life had become, everything else seemed to be progressing by leaps and bounds.

He was done with his second series about Holly. Everything was written and triple-edited by himself, Ellen, and Holly, it was all properly formatted and actually uploaded to Ignition. At this point, thanks to the ability to set release dates and the automation of that particular process, Gabe didn’t actually have to do anything. Every Monday at midnight the next episode went live. He had three more weeks of space granted to him by that: two more episodes and then the complete collection. Based on how well his previous complete collection had done, and the sales numbers of the newer ones, he was extremely interested to see how this did.

At this point, he was on his way to surpassing any job he’d ever had before in terms of earning. It wasn’t fantastic, given that he’d only ever worked crap jobs with crap pay, but still, it felt like a big accomplishment all things considered.

And thanks to his focus (as much as he was able to muster Ellen and Holly around) he was about halfway through the third series about Krystal, which was taking longer because the amount of words going in kept increasing.

By now, the shorts he wrote were about three times the length of his original pieces. No longer short stories or even novelettes but full-blown novellas.

Things had begun accelerating for Ellen, too.

Mostly she’d been painting, and she had a natural talent for it. She’d painted almost exclusively scenes from Recovery, and had now gone into the realm of fan fiction. Given how sexual their household was, Gabe supposed he shouldn’t have been surprised that she’d started painting sex scenes between some of the characters.

And she was really good at that.

In between that, she’d set herself up a website that offered both website design and graphic design, specifically making cover art for people, though she had yet to actually launch the site yet. After all her practice doing it for him, she felt more confident about doing it.

And she’d actually been getting some hits already, from a few work-for-hire sites she’d posted to.

He’d seen some of the work she’d done and could tell in some unspoken but certain way that she was going to do really well at this. It might take time, it almost certainly would, given the nature of modern life, but she had a natural talent and a natural drive. She didn’t need to hustle and grind at this point, but this was already proving that she’d be able to do this probably for the rest of her life and, if not be rich from it, then at least help carve out a living.

Holly had mostly still been relaxing, but had started to ramp things up over the past week. She was still getting her blog set up, and by now it was more complex than ever. He went to check it out every two days or so and at this point he found it intricate. She didn’t just have pictures of places, but also little descriptions written for them. And she’d been adding to the photos. They’d gone out several times, all over town, taking fantastic pictures.

And she’d gotten together her paperwork to do it on a more professional basis. (With a little help from Ellen, who had way more experience navigating bureaucracy.) She was still a ways from doing it professionally, but she at least wanted to dip her toe in and start to get a feel for what it might be like to be hired to take pictures.

It was a wild, interesting, exciting time for all three of them, and he was still shocked that it had taken seemingly so little time to happen.

He supposed that was largely because there had been huge chunks of time where basically nothing had had happened, no progress was made, and it was like he was just existing, stuck in some strange stasis.

That so much change could happen over the course of months, or even weeks, felt ludicrous.

“This way,” Sadie said, bringing him back to the present.

His eyes dipped briefly to her ass, which was showcased so very nicely in the tight jeans she was wearing. There was a lot to like about Sadie, but her ass was amazing. He was still having a hard time believing that unloading into her mouth was a memory and not a fantasy. Gabe followed after her, out of the entryway and through an open door to the left.

They had been discussing moving to another property with Sadie and after talking about it for awhile and doing some prep work, she had been ready to show him the other house that she owned. It was on the other side of town, in a more upscale neighborhood that made him vaguely uncomfortable to be in.

It was empty and felt somewhat cavernous as they walked through it, passing through one room, then into the kitchen, then back across the hall again.

“Bathroom,” she said, open door. “And then this would be a bedroom, or an office.” She opened the door next to it and they looked inside. It had a barren look to it and he could see why she’d been a little reluctant to show him.

She’d bought the property last year and had been slowly having it fixed up, but before she hadn’t really had any real rush to do so, as property management was something she’d gotten into awhile ago but didn’t have a great taste for.

They went upstairs are touring the rest of the first floor and looked through another three empty bedrooms and a pair of bathrooms, then she took him down into the basement.

“I’ve gotten most of the pertinent stuff taken care of,” she said. “Plumbing, the roof, some foundation work. It all checks out, and I intend to have a full inspection run by someone I can trust after I finish up. There’s still some electrical work but most of the work left is cosmetic. I want to get everything repainted and new carpets laid in, and replace a few of the windows. And finish out this basement. It’ll look a lot better once the carpet’s down and the painting is done. You can almost certainly turn this into a bedroom or maybe a den or...sex dungeon. I don’t know, I’m not completely sure what you’re all into.”

He laughed. “I don’t know if we’ll go that far.”

“Just so long as you don’t do any damage, I don’t really care what the five of you do,” Sadie replied.

They headed back upstairs. As they came to stand in what would be the living room, he studied Sadie. She looked different. She’d always looked good to him, but now she looked as good as he’d ever seen her. Part of it was her haircut. She’d gotten it cut in a sexier style. She was also wearing tight clothing that made her seem shapelier, that accentuated her body more. He thought she might be wearing a bit of makeup as well.

“So what do you think?” she asked.

“I think it’s great and we’re going to go ahead with this,” he replied. “Even if Liz and Krystal decide they don’t want to join us, it would be nice to have a bigger place. Especially with all the work we’re doing nowadays that requires a bit of space.”

“It’s good to see the three of you working on things you care about, that you’re passionate about. Is that why they didn’t come?” she asked.

“Uh...I mean, I think that’s why Holly didn’t come,” he replied, laughing a little awkwardly. “She was out taking photos and busy. Ellen was busy but…”

“But?” she prompted, a small smile on her on face. She really liked it when he was awkward or embarrassed, he’d noticed.

“I’m pretty sure the real reason she didn’t tag along was because she wanted you and I to get some more alone time.”

“Oh.” Sadie blushed a little. Now it was her turn to be awkward. “I’m close,” she said, “to being ready.”

“Like I said, no rush,” Gabe replied. “I want you to feel good about it.”

“Oh I feel very good about it,” she said, her smile returning with a bit more intensity. She took a step closer to him. “Very good about it. At this point I’m just waiting on my test results. I should hear back any day now.”

He nodded. Something that was floated once they’d started seriously talking about all this, and something Sadie herself had independently mentioned as well, was getting tested for STDs. Everyone, including Sadie, was basically ninety nine percent sure they had nothing, but given there was going to be unprotected sex going on, Gabe didn’t think it was unreasonable at all to cover their bases. So far everyone in his circle, including Krystal and Liz, had come back negative. Sadie had been dragging her feet a little out an admitted hatred of anything doctor or medical related. Given some of the stuff she had told them about running into, he didn’t blame her.

“And then you’ll be down to fuck?” he asked.

Gabe didn’t want to pressure her, but he also didn’t want her to think he wasn’t interested or was faking it. She was still nervous about that, apparently.

Plus, well, he really wanted this.

It wasn’t necessarily that he thought she was teasing him intentionally, dragging it out on purpose, but she was teasing him sexually to a certain degree. It was more that she was teasing him and she happened to be needing awhile to adjust to the whole idea of sex with him. She’d been off the scene for over a decade.

Even after all their interactions, it had to be kind of an intimidating prospect.

“Yes,” she said, smiling and reaching up, tracing a finger slowly along his jaw, “and then I will be down to fuck...I still can’t fully believe that you’re into this. Especially with Ellen and Holly and, good lord, Krystal. I’d understand if it was just ‘another notch on the belt’ kind of thing, but I can read it in your eyes: you’re attracted to me.”

“Very,” he agreed.

“It’s a little strange, after a lifetime of...not exactly being the belle of the ball, and then feeling like my looks were going down the drain even before forty, and that they were gone by fifty, and now I’m five years beyond that. I’ve never placed a lot of emphasis on sex or relationships, but I don’t disregard them completely...I guess, what I’m really trying to say is that it feels surprisingly good to have the attention of such a handsome young man.”

She’d laid her hand flat against his chest now, staring into his eyes.

“It feels about as fantastic as I thought it would to have the attention of such a hot cougar,” he replied.

She laughed. “I never thought I would be a cougar. I knew a MILF wasn’t on the table simply because...well, obvious reasons. But a cougar...I kind of thought it was a little bit of a sexual myth. That men who were into noticeably older women were very rare, and even then only women who were unusually attractive even as they headed into middle age.”

“If there’s a thing that I’m learning,” Gabe replied, “it’s that ‘attractive’ is largely bullshit. I mean yeah, conventionally attractive people have it easier, but I’ve definitely learned that attractive truly is a roll of the dice. I never in a million years would have thought that Ellen or Holly or Krystal or you would be genuinely sexually attracted to me.”

“You know, I was attracted to you before we even met,” Sadie murmured, settling her other hand on his hip now.

“Really?’

“Yes. You’ve got a very sexy voice. When we first spoke, it honestly made me horny to a degree I hadn’t been in a few years...I very seriously considered jumping you when we first met.”

“What stopped you? Because that would have been amazing,” he replied.

She laughed. “I suppose I was uncomfortable with the age difference...and I wasn’t sure if you were single or not. And ultimately I lost my nerve.”

“And now you aren’t worried about the difference?”

“No. Not really. You’re...a lot more mature than a lot of people at your age.”

“If you say so...you wanna make you?” he asked.

She exhaled sharply and blushed again. “I...wasn’t expecting that,” she murmured. “Yes.”

And then she kissed him, and he slipped his arms around her, leaning into the kiss. Such a rushing thrill of excitement burst within his stomach as their lips met and he tasted her and he felt her against him. He thought of her naked and how it felt to put his dick in her mouth, how it felt to have he wrap her fingers around his cock and jack him off. Feeling her up, seeing her masturbate, having sex in front of her.

What it might feel like to be inside of her.

Her tongue in his mouth was even more thrilling.

“You know,” he said, “I honestly don’t have to wait for the results to come back. We could fuck right now if you wanted to.”

She pulled back slightly, staring at him, flushed and breathing heavily. Then shook her head slightly. “Not yet,” she managed. “I’m sorely tempted but...not yet. I want it to be right. Believe me, I love the idea of a spur-of-the-moment, impassioned tryst as much as the next girl but...it’s been a decade. I want it to be...proper. Very soon, though, Gabe.”

“I’ll be ready,” he said.

She smiled and kissed him again, then pulled back, letting her hands fall to her sides. She sighed. “This is agitating,” she admitted. “I’m very horny right now.” She sighed. “Obviously you are too...but you have a pair of women you can go home to and get...help. Satisfying that urge.”

“Does it bother you?” he asked.

“No,” she replied, “don’t worry, I’m not the jealous type. You and Ellen and Holly are all so good to and for each other. I’m happy.”

“Thank you.”

“You’re welcome...now come on, there’s business I need to tend to elsewhere. The renovations shouldn’t take more than a week, perhaps two at the very longest.”

“What about rent?” he asked as they headed for the front door.

“I don’t know...honestly I’m tempted to just let you have it for free. The rent has just been a pretext at this point.”

Gabe was reaching for the knob but he hesitated and then turned to face her. “Why are you doing this for?” he asked suddenly. “I mean, really? I appreciate it, we all do, and I trust you, but...it doesn’t fully make sense.”

She looked back at him, twisting her lips, seeming to consider his words. “It took awhile, but I became good at making money,” she replied finally. “I won’t say I’m rich, but I am very well off at this point. Honestly, by now, I have enough to last me the rest of my life if I’m not stupid. Hell, even if I’m stupid. It’s been like that for fifteen years or so. After a certain point, I just...don’t really care. I have a nice house with nice stuff and a nice car, and a fat savings and retirement fund, some good stock options. I went on several vacations. To Europe. To South America. I went to Japan two years ago. And that was fun, and I’ll probably still go on a few of those trips, but I have more money than I know what to do with. The thing that remains is my desire to help people, somehow. So now I donate to charities and help out around town if I can...that’s why.”

Gabe thought there was a little more to it, something in the way she was talking, or maybe the way she was looking at him, but she seemed to hedge a little. Before he could respond, his phone buzzed. He checked it.

There was a text from Krystal: I’M COMING FOR YOU DUDE!

And then a pic of her tits popped up. She had pulled her shirt and bra up in the car and taken a picture. He felt a hit of direct lust, made all the more powerful by his makeout session with Sadie. He replaced his phone.

“I really appreciate it, Sadie,” he said. “Honestly, you’ve changed my entire life. For the better by far.”

She smiled. “That makes it worth it. I had a very good feeling about you, Gabe, and I’m so glad to find out that it was right...now, I assume that was a woman wanting sex?”

He laughed awkwardly. “Kinda yeah. Krystal and Liz are coming back down today and they’re on the way apparently.”

“Give me a kiss and get back to them, then,” she said.

He and Sadie shared another kiss, and then he was out the door.

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Awake again.

Panic again.

I sat up, as the panic was more mild this time, and already I was questioning it, and looked around. Everything was moving, gently. It was subtle, but it was obvious, like I was in a car driving along a highway. Only that didn’t happen anymore, for the most part. It was dark, though not completely so.

A single shaft of light spilled into the room and gave me a view of it, and I relaxed as it came back to me again and slowly laid back down.

After two and a half years of snowy apocalypse where almost nothing actually worked anymore, it was still incredibly jarring to wake up on a moving train. For me, at least. And Hannah and Susan. As far as I knew, the others didn’t have a problem adjusting to it. We got nightmares somehow related to being tied up or buried alive for some reason, but as I laid there in the dim light, I realized that I couldn’t remembering having one last night.

Maybe I was getting used to it.

For a moment, I just laid there and stared at the ceiling. The light in our cabin came from a single bullet hole in the exterior wall. We’d debated for a bit about what to do about it and ultimately I liked the idea of having even a tiny extra window to provide sunlight in the morning. The problem with our pair of windows was that there was no in between. The metal shutters were either sealed tight, hiding the light completely, or fully open. Considering we were all supposed to be sleeping in, me especially, we didn’t particularly want sunlight blazing into the cabin every morning. We didn’t quite want perfect darkness either.

The bullet hole seemed like a nice little compromise. Normally I’d light candles, to help me see during the night, or have a fire going in a fireplace. But candles in a moving train made me nervous that they might get knocked off while we were sleeping and catch something on fire, and the train was built well enough that having a fire going in the wood-burning stove that had been added to the cabin before we’d gotten there made it unbearably hot. So, we’d found some thick plastic, cut a piece to fit the hole, and shoved it in.

It worked well enough.

Like having the blinds or curtains open just a crack.

I wondered idly what time it was. The quality of the light put it definitely past dawn. It might be towards noon even.

I wasn’t prone to sleeping in, but Lisa and Melanie both had told me in no uncertain terms that I needed to spend as much time sleeping and resting as possible while the train was running as it was supposed to and we had the time.

For once, I didn’t argue.

The main reason was that the last several weeks had really kicked my ass in a way it had never been kicked before. Starting with the trek back to Pine Lake, the run-in with the asshole group, then the furious race to find Megan and Melanie and Fay, to the desperate rush that lasted for weeks trying to keep Pine Lake alive, and finally getting this train operational…

When we’d taken off, heading north towards, hopefully, our salvation, I was more tired than I ever remembered being in my entire life.

I’d probably slept half of the past five days away.

My body was beaten, bruised, and battered, and my exhaustion was bone-deep.

It felt worse than when I’d been recovering after getting shot.

Even now, I could feel that I wasn’t healed up completely. I knew I owed part of that to the fact that after two days, I hadn’t been able to really stay down when I probably should have. There was a lot to do on the train and I felt too much like shit just laying there while everyone else was getting it done. I’d argued with Lisa about it and she’d finally given me some light duty. Mostly I hung out in the kitchen with Elizabeth and Delilah and a few others preparing meals or sorting food, making sure we had enough.

One of the girls murmured in her sleep and shifted. I looked over. It was Hannah. She lay between Megan and I. Across from the foot of the bed was another, smaller bed, a twin size where Lara and Susan slept together. We’d agreed that five of us should share the room given that it was pretty large.

I had to admit, it was sure nice enough for me.

That was another reason I probably wasn’t healing up as fast as I could be: four horny and willing women who were usually naked in here with me.

How could I possibly turn them down when they offered?

Megan and Susan seemed to be the more responsible of the four, tending to hold off or not go for longer sessions, but Lara and Hannah?

Lara was hypersexual, it seemed, and Hannah was still in the midst of discovering just how fucking awesome sex could be.

And then of course there was Jessica, and Elizabeth. Two horny MILFs who lived right next door who had both gotten out of shitty, sexless marriages not all that long ago and had figured out that sex with me was really, really nice.

And there was also Lisa, Fay, and Melanie, who I was having casual side sex with, although Fay and Lisa had been too busy since we’d begun living on the train and Melanie had only fucked me once. I got the impression she was holding back for just the reason that she was a doctor and knew I needed to rest and recover.

With a sigh, I sat up and got to my feet, then moved into the tiny bathroom and took a piss. I wasn’t going to be able to get back to sleep at this point, I could just tell. Probably a good idea to get up anyway.

I flushed the toilet and was again struck by how much I missed that sound. Goddamn was it good to have a working toilet. I glanced at the shower stall. And shower. We had to ration, because there was only so much hot and clean water, but still, a five minute hot shower every two days and a functional toilet was just amazing.

I brushed my teeth and was considering who to wake up to take my shower with, because it made sense to double-up while showering and I hadn’t taken one yesterday, which meant I got to take one today, when I heard someone moving in the bedroom behind me. A moment later there was a light knock at the door.

“Come in,” I said.

The door slid open and Susan appeared, rubbing sleep from her eyes. “Hey...I gotta pee,” she murmured.

“Want to shower with me?” I asked.

“Yes,” she replied immediately.

“Brush your teeth and pee, then we can shower,” I said.

“Okay,” she replied.

I finished up and then stepped out. She went in and shut the door and got to her business. Lara was still out, I could see, and so was Megan, but I thought Hannah would be up soon. I was surprised Susan was the one who’d gotten up first, normally she was a heavy sleeper. Although honestly, I was more surprised that Hannah wasn’t already awake. But I guess the past few weeks had taken a heavy toll on her as well.

I heard the toilet flush and the shower start up and slipped back into the bathroom.

~

Twenty minutes later I emerged from our quarters with Hannah and Susan, dressed and feeling refreshed.

The bad thing about doubling up on showers was that it tended to take longer...for obvious reasons.

The good thing about doubling up was that technically speaking, we each had five minutes, which meant that what was supposed to be a five minute shower had turned into fifteen minutes of sex in the shower with Susan and then Hannah.

So that was pretty cool.

We walked down the hallway to the dining area of our cart, which was almost empty. Only a few people were sitting at the tables, and I could see why: judging by the position of the sun out the windows, it was maybe an hour before noon. These few people were either taking late breakfasts like us, or an early lunch. We got our food from the serving area, finding vegetable stew and venison on offer, and orange juice. That one was nice, there had been a huge stash of long frozen OJ on the train and we were making good use of it since there was a decent chance we wouldn’t realistically be able to bring most of it with us when the train broke down.

So far, this vehicle we’d found had held up pretty well.

I’d hardly seen Fay because she’d been so busy running maintenance all over it, but she seemed happy. Busy, but happy.

The few times I’d spoken with her she seemed confident that it’d keep going for at least several more days before something went wrong. That was something she had stressed: it was going to break down, and it almost certainly was not going to make it to where we wanted it to. And I thought she was right.

So far, the going was slow.

Besides the fact that we were literally going slowly, both to keep the train from being too stressed and also to make it possible to stop in case there was something blocking the way or like a bridge or something was out, we also tended to stop at least once a day, sometimes twice. For a number of reasons: to gather energy from the solar cells more effectively (they didn’t work as well while in motion), to gather snow to melt for the water supply, to go on a hunting expedition.

So far I had yet to leave the train during one of these stops, except twice to stretch my legs and walk around outside for a bit.

By now, I was feeling the effects.

“What are you thinking about, babe?” Hannah asked, and I felt her foot brush mine under the table. I had been staring out the window at the frozen landscape of fields and trees and abandoned vehicles and buildings. I glanced over at her. She was smiling at me, a calm, warm smile, and I couldn’t help but return it.

Hannah had become extremely affectionate since we’d settled onto the train. It wasn’t that she wasn’t this way before, it was just that it was very obvious now. I wasn’t sure what was causing it but I liked it.

“I was thinking that whenever we next stop, I’m getting off this train and going on a hunting trip or something. Maybe explore a building,” I replied.

“You sure Melanie or Lisa will let you?” Susan murmured with a small smirk.

“I think they won’t be able to stop me. I’m still healing, but I’m no longer down for the count. I’m starting to get some cabin fever...what are you smirking at?”

“I just think it’s a little, uh...amusing, the way Lisa and Melanie...make you do things, I guess,” she replied.

“They’re very convincing,” I replied.

“Who’s the most convincing?” Hannah asked, brushing my foot with hers again.

“Oh no, I’m not heading into that territory. That’s just a variation on ‘who’s the prettiest?’ or ‘who fucks best?’. I don’t answer those questions.”

“Mmm-hmm,” Hannah murmured.

“That’s a smart man,” a new voice said. We glanced over as Lisa walked up to our table. “Mind if I join you?”

“You’re always welcome to join,” I replied.

She smiled and took a seat. “You seem to be doing better.”

“I am,” I replied, wondering how much she’d heard of what I’d said earlier about leaving the train. I knew she wouldn’t like it. She’d been worrying over me a lot. “How are things going on the train lately?”

“Well enough, I suppose, given what we’re dealing with,” Lisa replied, growing a little more irritable. She sighed. “I know I should be more grateful, and I am, it’s just that...I’m so fucking sick of bad things happening and shit going wrong.”

“You’re handling it really well,” Hannah said.

“Yeah. I mean, as our leader, you have to see the whole pictures, and make all the big decisions. All the rest of us get to focus on one or two little parts of the picture. Most of us couldn’t do that,” Susan added.

“Well, at this point, I can’t claim to run this whole miserable operation on my own,” Lisa replied. “Chris pretty obviously is helping shoulder a lot of this responsibility.”

“Oh no,” I said, “I just get shit done. I’m not a leader.”

“Come on, Chris, you can’t even pretend to claim that anymore,” Lisa said, folding her arms as she sat back in her chair and fixed me with a stern look. “You’ve played a significant role in making several big decisions.”

I stared back at her, a feeling of discomfort settling over me. I wasn’t sure what to say, how to respond to that.

“To be clear, you’re doing well,” she added, her features softening.

“I don’t like that idea,” I said finally.

“Which is a good sign,” Lisa replied.

“I don’t see how. A reluctant person in a leadership position doesn’t exactly instill confidence.”

“Surely you’re aware by now that the best people to make decisions are the ones who don’t want power. People who want power get corrupted pretty easily, or already are. You know who I mean: the jerk-offs who get off on power plays and telling people what to do. The pieces of shit who are content to hide in a bunker while sending thousands to fight and die, instead of being out there and laying their own lives on the line. Reluctant leaders who still understand responsibility and are brave enough to make the hard choices are the best, because they won’t abuse their power. Mostly. I fucking hate my job but I’m decent at it and we’d probably all be dead if I hadn’t stepped up,” Lisa said.

I sighed heavily. “Yeah, I guess you have a point. I still prefer to just be a useful tool. Aim me at a problem and let me fix it.”

“That’s a dangerous mindset,” Hannah said. “If some piece of shit who jacks off to power gets ahold of a ‘tool’ like that…”

“I mean I have to trust who’s aiming me at shit,” I replied.

“That’s a fair point,” she said.

Lisa began to say something but fell silent and began looking around as the train abruptly started to slow.

“What’s happening?” Susan asked.

“I don’t know,” Lisa replied, getting to her feet. “We shouldn’t be stopping.”

“Great,” I muttered, standing as well, abandoning what was left of my breakfast, “let’s go see what happened this time.”

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CHAPTER I

“There will be many, many corpses,” Jak said as he ducked under a branch, then stepped over a large rock. “And we must deal with them today.”

“I’m not looking forward to it,” Rylee replied.

“I suppose it is worth it, if it means we have a new home, and safety,” Niri murmured.

“Safety for now,” Jak said. “You have to remember that we will never truly be safe. Especially not while we have so small a tribe.”

“Do you really think we can find others to join us? We are a strange group: an elf, a magic user, and a man from a mysterious, distant land,” Niri said.

“I think I can convince people to join us,” Jak replied. “They already have a name for me.”

“Who?” Rylee asked.

“The Tolvar. They called me the Amber Warrior.”

“Hmm. I suppose the color of your skin is a little like amber,” Rylee said. “And you are definitely quite the warrior.”

They fell silent as they approached the clearing in front of the cave. Already, Jak could detect the various scents of the recent slaughter. Blood, guts, excrement. Fear. He could smell it lingering on the air, even now. As he caught this awful concoction of odors, Jak felt his body responding instinctively. His senses opening up, preparing to warn him of danger. Usually, if there were dead things around, the thing that killed it might also still be around. Even though in this case he was the thing that had killed, or helped kill, everyone here.

But other things could have shown up since he’d gone to get the women.

Slowly, they emerged into the clearing in front of the cave that was to be their new home. For a moment, they simply stood there together, surveying the carnage.

“This is truly impressive,” Rylee murmured finally. “I don’t know if I’ve ever heard of something like this. A single man wiping out an entire warparty.”

“It wasn’t a single man,” Jak replied. “It was mostly spiders.”

“But you thought to lead them here. To pit them against each other. And it worked,” Rylee pressed. “This is entirely your doing.”

“You two helped.”

“It was mostly you,” Niri said.

“Well, it’s done,” Jak replied, unsure of how to feel about this. He did feel proud about the bloody battlefield, but it also made him uncomfortable for a reason he could not articulate. “For now, we should explore the caves, and be wary. Other predators or scavengers may come up, and I imagine there must be more Tolvar out in the forest, those who weren’t here when the battle happened.”

“Oh...yes. That is true,” Niri murmured, looking around uncomfortably.

“Come on. The sooner we begin this work, the sooner we can claim these caves as our new home, the site of our new tribe,” Jak said, and began making his way across the field of death. Though the large bonfire had mostly gone out by now, a few fires still burned from where something large had crashed into it and scattered burning wood everywhere. Jak was grateful it hadn’t spread to the forest. He studied the area with a focused eye.

The clearing sat in front of a large rock wall that curved up into a broad overhang which shaded almost half of the space. In the rock wall were three cave entrances. The one in the middle was the largest, while the one to the left was the smallest, closer in size to the cave Jak, Niri, and Rylee presently called home.

Perhaps the greatest feature was the waterfall. It was small, about the same size as the one they had been making morning pilgrimages to, off to the east side of the cave complex, just out of sight enough to provide a little bit of privacy, creating a creek that was just big enough to possibly sustain some fish and other creatures.

He tightened his grip on his club as he spied a few blood trails leading into the caves. It was entirely possible that some of the Tolvar had survived the battle and, while he had been gone, come back and hid in the caves to heal. Or that wolves or other predators had come and dragged some corpses into the caves for a quick meal.

Either scenario meant combat.

“Stay behind me,” Jak said as he crouched and picked up one of the more intact burning sticks. He passed it to Rylee. “Use this to light the way.”

“I will,” she replied, accepting it.

“Niri, make sure no one sneaks up behind us,” Jak said.

“All right.”

Jak chose the cave to the right to enter first. He still had a memory of it stored in his mind from his previous run-through before going to get the women. This time, though, he would move more slowly. He walked into the tunnel, studying everything he could see in the daylight and the flickering torchlight. The floor and the earthen walls to either side of him showed signs of life. There were many footprints in the dirt, marks along the walls from hands and weapons, made in passing. It seemed a few Tolvar shared Niri’s proclivity for painting on the cave walls, though their paintings seemed much more crude by comparison.

Broken pottery, bones, bits of flint and slate, vegetation, chunks of meat, burned wood, and discarded tools and weapons lay scattered randomly across the floor of the cave. There was a break in the right wall that led into a small cavern. One of the blood trails led there. Jak gripped his club more tightly, preparing for combat yet again.

He got up to the turn in the tunnel and peered slowly around it, revealing as little of himself as possible. The light was about as good, as a few small holes in the ceiling of the cavern ahead let some sun filter in. There was an unmoving shape near the center of the cavern. Jak waited several moments, then began making his way into the space. He quickly checked to his right and left, but no lingering Tolvar waited for him, no animals hid in the shadows to ambush him. The place was obviously lived in, not long ago likely a communal sleeping place. Several simple furs and bunches of some of the softer plants lay in heaps along the edge of the space.

Jak could see that the lump in the center of the cavern was indeed a body, and not breathing. He prodded it with his club when he got close enough. It didn’t react. He pushed it over onto its back and found a Tolvar warrior, quite dead. The reason was obvious enough: two deep bite marks on his shoulder and a gash across his stomach. He’d been hit during combat and a giant spider had bit him. He’d rushed in here in a panic and died. Maybe he’d had some antivenom stashed somewhere. If that was the case, he clearly hadn’t reached it in time.

Once he determined the sleeping area hid no threats, Jak returned to the main tunnel and followed it to its end. It ended in a split, one tunnel going right and leading to another cavern, this one a bit bigger. One went left and connected to the central tunnel. Jak went right and checked out the second cavern. It was much like the first, though it had the beginnings of somewhat more permanent residence. He saw larger clay pots and several baskets, as well as some basic furniture. There were a few shelves, sticks fitted and bound together with leather strips or vines, as well as a lot more beds. All of it was very crude, though.

Jak wasn’t sure how much of it they could use, but that was to be determined later.

There was so much to do.

He finished his inspection of this cavern and then moved into the central tunnel. It was fairly broad, almost a cavern unto itself, and it was obvious that several of the men had been living here. There were a few fireplaces surrounded by picked-clean bones, and ashes. A dead giant spider and a pair of Tolvar corpses lay near the other end of the tunnel, at the main entrance. He kept moving, checking out a little niche at the back of the primary tunnel, seeing that it seemed to have been serving as a place to store extra weapons and materials.

They walked together along the length of the central tunnel until they were back outside again, coming back out into the daylight, and then moved to the final passageway. It seemed mostly clear. They moved down it silently, following it to its end, where it turned sharply to the left. Something about it reminded Jak of the cave they had been living in. It opened into a third cavern, this one not too big, not too small. It had a single opening at the top and a shaft of sunlight spilled in like a waterfall of light, catching motes of dust in the air. The place seemed oddly untouched, just a bed and some weapons and the remnants of a fire and some meals scattered about. Maybe the Tolvar commander had been using it for himself.

“This will be our home,” Jak said as he looked around.

“You, me, and Rylee?” Niri asked hopefully.

“Yes. You, me, and Rylee. We will make our home in this cave.”

They stood there, looking around the cave. It was a little smaller than the one they had previously been living in, but that wouldn’t matter. Before, they had used that cave for everything, but here, they could store extra food, weapons, firewood, building materials, skins, and whatever else they might need in other parts of the cave network. This would be their personal space, their home. There was space for a large bed to accommodate all three of them, for Niri to paint on the walls, a hole in the ceiling to let out smoke from a fire, space for shelves and whatever else they might think to construct as they were making the place their own.

“I like it,” Rylee said finally.

“I do too!” Niri declared. She seemed to beam with happy energy as she walked around the cave. “It is wonderful! I love it already!” She ran over to Jak suddenly and leaped at him, wrapping her arms around him.

He laughed and caught and supported her easily. They shared a kiss.

“Thank you,” she murmured, resting her head on his shoulder. “I love you so much. You’ve done so many nice things for me.”

“I love you too, Niri,” Jak replied, giving her a gentle squeeze. “You’ve done many nice things for me as well.” Supporting her with one hand, he turned and extended his arm to Rylee, who stepped up and hugged the two of them.

“I’m glad we are together,” she said.

“So am I,” Niri agreed, kissing Rylee on the mouth. “We should celebrate tonight!”

“If we have the energy,” Jak replied, letting her down. “We have a lot of work ahead of us.”

Niri lost some of her good cheer. She sighed softly. “Yes, that is true. And I…” she looked down at herself, “do not quite have the body for hard work.”

“Well...it depends on the work,” Jak replied, reaching up and briefly cupping one of her breasts.

She giggled and blushed. “I suppose that is true.”

“Come on, let us get to work.”

With that, he turned and walked back out of the cave, already imagining what the place was going to look like once he had set his hand to it.

The day was indeed very long.

Jak could tell that the corpses bothered both women, Niri especially, so he took to the duty of handling those. Rylee and Niri seemed happy enough to spend their time gathering up every weapon, every piece of clothing, every tool, every waterskin, every bit of food that was still eatable, everything that the Tolvar had gathered that might be useful. Already, he was thinking ahead. As Jak stripped each corpse and then hauled it off into another clearing a little ways away that he’d scouted out, he was already considering what might need to happen if they actually pulled off making a tribe. It still seemed somewhat unlikely.

Almost everyone he’d met so far had been extremely hostile. Save for Niri, Rylee, and Nessa, and he supposed technically that crow, which seemed to have flown off for the moment, everyone had tried to kill him. Or almost certainly would have tried to kill him, had he not avoided revealing his presence to them for one reason or another. Rylee had said there were others like her out there, and Nessa had hinted at something similar, but after the slaughter he had just instigated, Jak was having a hard time believing it.

The sun moved across the sky and hours disappeared as he stripped and hauled body after body through the woods.

He took a break once to eat, consuming a pouch of berries and nuts that Niri and Rylee had found among the storage area, then drained a waterskin and got back to work. He got the human bodies out of the way first, given he wasn’t looking forward to dealing with the giant spider bodies. They were heavier and more dangerous to work with. He still had the antivenom in him, but he imagined it would be a real pain if he accidentally got himself caught on a fang. He kept at it, though, dragging them by their heavy limbs through the woods.

By the time Jak had finished getting all the bodies to the clearing, he was beginning to tire and the sun was starting to set.

Still, no Tolvar had showed up at the cave at least.

The clearing in front of the cave was bloody but otherwise had been cleaned up. He tracked down Niri and Rylee in the rearmost cavern along right side of the caves and found that they had gathered and placed all of the spare supplies and weapons and food from outside in there. There was a lot to sort through.

“We grabbed everything we could find,” Niri said.

“You both did great,” Jak replied.

“A lot of it seemed of low quality,” Rylee said. She was inspecting a spear at the moment. “My people unfortunately rely on quantity over quality. And it seemed especially true for this group. Most of these weapons might do in the immediate sense, but they’ll wear out quickly. Honestly most of them will be more useful for burning.”

“Then we shall burn them, and salvage what we can,” Jak replied. “For now, let us return to our cave. Tomorrow we can finish preparing this place for ourselves and move our supplies here. And claim it properly.”

Niri yawned. “I would much like to see our bed.”

“Me too. I don’t know how you managed to move all those bodies by yourself,” Rylee agreed, seeming to hold back a yawn.

“I suppose I just have a lot of strength,” Jak replied.

“Mmm...yes you do,” Niri murmured, running one hand up and down his arm, then slipping it down lower, resting it over his crotch. “Much strength…”

“Let’s get back to the cave,” Jak said, slipping a hand briefly under her wrap and groping her bare breast, making her let out a little noise of happy surprise.

They headed back out into the clearing. Jak was reluctant to leave the new caves after spending all day cleaning it out, but he knew the time was not yet right.

Tomorrow.

Tomorrow they would really make it theirs.