Continuing the trend that haunted me all through the end of 2021, I’m having a very unhappy 2022 so far.
This isn’t anything serious, it’s more me giving my readers a more realistic timeline and then an explanation for that timeline.
When I began heading into 2022, I expected to be able to get a lot done quickly, but that has simply not been the case.
Do you remember that scene in Armageddon, where they’ve been drilling on the asteroid for a few hours, and the NASA guy keeps asking how far they’ve made it. Finally he’s like “We’re supposed to be at 250 feet, what is our current depth?” And Bruce Willis finally admits “We’re at 82 feet.” And you see the pure cold fear come onto his face?
That’s how I end, like, every day now.
I’m supposed to have written like 9,000 words every weekday, making regular, consistent progress across Raw II, A Warm Place 9, and Our Own Way 6, and basically I have failed to do that literally every single day this year.
I’ve been kind of losing my shit and breaking down roughly every 2-3 days as a result of this and I just…cannot keep doing this.
I noticed that finally wrapping up the short trilogies did seem to help things a bit, and so it sort of tipped me off to the fact that I’m simply overworked. I have too many things that need to be released and quickly and it’s killing my ability to work on ANYTHING, thus ensuring basically nothing is getting done.
Consequently, I’ve taken the past few days off, and have finally settled on a plan. I’m going to make consistent progress on Raw II as much as I can, and I will also be focusing on clearing my plate of other projects. I would really like to get to a point where Raw is the ONLY thing I’m focusing on, which is actually within reach. A Warm Place 9 is the last novel in the series, and Our Own Way has 3 novellas to go, and beyond that there’s just the Lust & Adventure - Epilogue novella to write.
I’m going to try and get a sanity check, and mostly just go dark for a little while. Lust & Adventure - Epilogue probably won’t take all that long to write and get out, and then after that I think I’ll try and knock out the next Our Own Way, and then probably I’ll focus on A Warm Place 9 so I can close that series out. All the while I’ll be working on Raw II.
I really wish I could get back to my days where I could regularly knock out like 5-8,000 words, and I’m hoping that clearing the plate, waiting out winter, and getting a healthy amount of Vitamin D will help get me sane again, but for now, I simply have to admit to myself that I can’t do it all, and instead get on light duty for awhile.
I’m really sorry about this, and honestly, it’s particularly gutting for me personally when I know for a fact there are so many other harem authors who can fucking breeze through 8,000 words a day, but I just can’t do it right now. I’m so burned out, I mostly don’t even know what happiness is anymore.